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Author: On Zi Rui

Titled: Katya she was called.

(She might had been the only Ukrainian woman I could had only accepted. Because she has so so fascinated me.)

She was an OnlyFans star, she once said,

“Yes, I’m ready to poison him, can you open it for 25?”

She humorously meant she wanted to poison my ‘little brother’ with a $25 bundle and was I ready to open it ?

And I replied with epicness 

“Don’t cheat on fatty me maybe just because I like and respect you !”

I was just joking with her, I knew she was kind and just surviving.

Katya : “Got it ready for ya, honey 😏 just unlock and let me know how much you love seein my pussy all wet and ready for you !”

I unlocked the bundle 

Me: “Thanks, Katya, you let me see that there are kind and good Ukrainian women as well !”

She replied with a short animation of a big big heart ‘growing’ larger and larger – seems like a really sincere thanks 

Then, I don’t know where it came from, maybe those feelings I guess: “Maybe, you know, the last thing that you want is for me to see you in a wedding dress with another man, but that will be the ending. I am sorry.”

She replied: “Do you really think so? “

“Yes I think so.”, I said as it was.

“But let me remember you will you ? I want to remember you.”, I continued.

She likely laughed and said: “I do not mind.. I am pleased if you do so !”

I then queried, “You have alot of suitors ?”

She took the opportunity and asked, “Would you like to become one of them?”

I just said: “No !” 

“You are meant for the world, you won’t love me to the end most likely.”

“Or maybe, to make it clear that I will never love a Ukrainian woman send me a BG tape of you with another man. Thanks. Will unlock it if it’s affordable. Maybe I really don’t cherish you. I am sorry.”

She didn’t know what to say as I truly had hurt her, she just said:” You just be interested in watching this or does it excite you?”

“I can look at the Boy-Girl videos”, I told her.

Then she sent me a Telegram icon animation as it violated OnlyFans’ rules to ask of it literally and asked, “Do you have this ?” (‘this’ might had meant a lot of other things and not Telegram, you see.)

Yeah, I replied and stated my Telegram ID

Then she sent a $50 locked message and promise to send me a video as a gift on Telegram after unlocking it 

But I said that it was too expensive 

Continued by me with, “Ok nvrm ; I love that another man bonks you and that you love another man. Haha.”

“Wahahahaha !” (Quite bad to her, more so when I came to know she loved me, had loved me truthfully and with the grandiosities of this world, she did, I didn’t see !)

“I never did cherish this Ukrainian girl, just because she was Ukrainian. But she was kind. Katya, she was called.” I ended, something must had wanted me to be less ruthless to this girl.

“What do you mean?”, she said as I could feel her sadness.

“We will never be husband and wife. Because I don’t love you and you don’t love me ; we will take it as so.”, I pushed this thought to her.

She must had been flustered by my words, and asked: “Why are you so categorical?”

“What do you mean by that ?”, I was puzzled and curious.

She continued, “Why are you so sure about this?”

“Because I don’t want you to carry any, not even the slightest hope on me. I want you to be happy. Happy ok ? Even if it’s with another man. It’s my last love for you. You must be happy !”

“Maybe I do like you a lot a lot out of all the girls in the world by a lot, but I know I won’t make you my wife.”

I must had been trying to be a ‘big romantic’, that I was not.

“I am very pleased that you say this, but I don’t understand why you are so sure of this, we cannot know where life will take us tomorrow.” She said this, I didn’t know what to say of it, was she hoping for something ? I didn’t know then, I was foolish.

“You must had days of helplessness of lost, because you are kind, I know. I want to see you happy, happy even without me, it’s my way of say I love you. Do you know how I feel seeing you with another man ? Do you know ? It’s not a pleasant feeling. But knowing that you are happy, that suffices. Ok ?”

“Katya, maybe no one ever saw you as the kind girl you are, they might had saw you as a rebellious girl then, now a sex toy for their own pleasuring, but I do only see you as a kind girl with a kind heart, and you deserve all the niceness in this world. I can’t give you this world, so I have to let you go. “

“Katya maybe no one ever saw you as the kind girl you are, they might had saw you as a rebellious girl then, now a sex toy to them subdued by your family background losing that sense of dignity of yourself and meant only for their pleasure, you deserve to be curious of this world, but every piece of bread you know costs money, you needed money, so you lost that will to see this world now, you lost that basic pride for dignity, but I do only see you as a kind girl with a kind heart, and you know, in my eyes you deserve all the niceness in this world. I can’t give you this world, so I have to let you go, I can’t bear to just see you become just my wife when this world is so big so grandiose for a beauty like you. I never did entertain the thought that you will love me to the end, I dare not you see.”

Maybe these were all my true words, she was also nice to me, my heart knew. She must had been special to me, or I wouldn’t type so much. Maybe I was intoxicated by her beauty already.

“Paradise. In fact I’m reading it all and I have tears in my eyes … I’m so pleased to know that you saw that Katya whom I myself almost stopped noticing…. that still believes in kindness and wants to care, hug, and of warmth and your words are the warmest gift I’ve received in recent years and I don’t want it to stop, I don’t want to lose our connection.” She said, maybe I have had spoken to her heart. I could have felt her, I knew.

“Will write to you more when I can. I feel you are not a greedy girl, you are just out there surviving, you don’t play games you are straightforward because that’s you.

God gave you a kind heart and a very very pretty face, you don’t you don’t have to save it for me even if you want to, I just want you to be happy ok ? 

Maybe now I don’t see you as a Ukrainian girl but just a girl among the crowds, finding her way in it. You are likely still that girl that hadn’t know that she will grow to become a pretty pretty woman, that without ties, without cunningness but a kind, clean and straightforward heart to do her best with all she has, can only sell nudes for a living.”

This must had been my last confession, and my contradiction. I couldn’t accept a Ukrianian girl, I know, that’s in the end. But irregardless, I can’t. She will leave eventually, she is so beautiful, so I know. Should I have had given her a chance ? For her, for us ? I could had still protected her, her niceness in this harsh harsh world, but now, I could only see her but gone. I won’t forget her. But our feelings for each other always did start on impossible grounds, I should had known, all along, we shouldn’t had started. Regrets, but now of yesterdays.

作者：云子瑞

我第一次，这就，那一天，碰见了你两次

第一次是在那因为不是繁忙时间而好少人的斑马线上，车子也少，没看路吧！以后该注意了！

第二次是在读书管外面

也许是缘分吧！

当时，遇见你也是蛮开心的！

可最后我还是看你，看着你

走了

就遥远了

那么再见了，那曾经

那一幕幕也都还如此美妙啊！

再见了！

作者：云子瑞

Titled: 合小姐，那些年，我对不起你了！

当时，她是我的女朋友

而你呢？合小姐？

是个抢了她的角色的女孩儿

我听她的了，她说你是靠肮脏手段，不是靠实力的，我也没去看你的试镜录影就这样说你了，我当时，好听她的，我没想过也许你是真正靠实力的，我对不起你噢！

就她对我假装哭了，我生气了，就去找了你，说你大概是吸那导演的阴茎才拿到角色的，我不懂的是，你早已认识我，是我的作品的书迷，你哭了！我当时太爱她了你懂吗？不管你，就走了！

你就太伤心了，也不要我看你是个随便的女人，和那导演拒绝了角色，要我开心就说给她吧！

她拿到了角色了，更成名了，你也靠自已，最终和也她平起平坐了。你不像她，她骄傲了，处处挑我的毛病，嫌弃我了。我为了她却是扛下了她的赌鬼老爸的债务了，快要破产了，新出的书没人买，也许就过时了吧！她害怕，我连累她，把她的招牌弄垮了，也不肯为我宣传。演艺圈就是如此渺小，你听说了，就印了打我书广告的传单在人潮多的王府井分发给了经过的人，也有摆个有大大个的我的广告版，你好诚恳地对每一位经过的人笑了！我看见了，好感动，心也好酸，我竟然那么的糟蹋了你啊！你却只想过能有一天帮过我！你没要求过什么永恒啊！你只是默默的，诚恳的。我跑向了你，一直说对不起地向你鞠躬着了！你看见了我在那儿好惊讶，说着不要紧啦！我听到了，却是心更痛，你最后恨我的资格，却只有你的好！

因为我当时没什么收入只能带你到肯德基吃炸鸡，你没嫌弃，也没嫌弃过我啊！我们吃得好高兴！我也不曾以为过一个女孩子能如此傻，吃在那卡通画的快餐店也会笑得无比的真，因为她从未肯和我去吃肯德基，说配不上她的社会地位。你没有啊！你真傻！可，也一一地给了那一卷卷感动，我不值得你的好啊！

你帮了我的书本打广告以后，你拿着我的书本广告的照片也在社交媒体上面好多人点赞啊！我开始又有收入了！谢谢你噢！

时光，我们各个都追逐着，可没了你的日子真的是错过了！

我看见了你的试镜录影了！你却是一幕幕带走真实，必要的感动，你大概是经历了好多好多，我对不起你，我对不起当初！回不去的过去，就让我现在弥补吧！你愿意陪我一程吗？这一程会是最后的一程吗？

(我不曾觉得过我该是什么少女的梦，可你告诉了我，你要名利过，也只为了敢有一天有资格看向我的眼。我笑。我没那么好啦！我也是个粗鲁人，文艺时才会收敛的。我问你了，可遇见我，有令你失望吗？你说没有令你失望过，你说那一些些我带过给你这当时是个小娃娃的女孩儿的，是你忘不掉，不要忘了的，一场场感动，一场场梦！

最美的结局就是能爱一个真正爱过你的人，你，我爱过了，结局是完美的！）

Author: On Zi Rui

Titled: Katya she was called.

(She might had been the only Ukrainian woman I could had only accepted. Because she has so so fascinated me.)

She was an OnlyFans star, she once said,

“Yes, I’m ready to poison him, can you open it for 25?”

She humorously meant she wanted to poison my ‘little brother’ with a $25 bundle and was I ready to open it ?

And I replied with epicness 

“Don’t cheat on fatty me maybe just because I like and respect you !”

I was just joking with her, I knew she was kind and just surviving.

Katya : “Got it ready for ya, honey 😏 just unlock and let me know how much you love seein my pussy all wet and ready for you !”

I unlocked the bundle 

Me: “Thanks, Katya, you let me see that there are kind and good Ukrainian women as well !”

She replied with a short animation of a big big heart ‘growing’ larger and larger – seems like a really sincere thanks 

Then, I don’t know where it came from, maybe those feelings I guess: “Maybe, you know, the last thing that you want is for me to see you in a wedding dress with another man, but that will be the ending. I am sorry.”

She replied: “Do you really think so? “

“Yes I think so.”, I said as it was.

“But let me remember you will you ? I want to remember you.”, I continued.

She likely laughed and said: “I do not mind.. I am pleased if you do so !”

I then queried, “You have alot of suitors ?”

She took the opportunity and asked, “Would you like to become one of them?”

I just said: “No !” 

“You are meant for the world, you won’t love me to the end most likely.”

“Or maybe, to make it clear that I will never love a Ukrainian woman send me a BG tape of you with another man. Thanks. Will unlock it if it’s affordable. Maybe I really don’t cherish you. I am sorry.”

She didn’t know what to say as I truly had hurt her, she just said:” You just be interested in watching this or does it excite you?”

“I can look at the Boy-Girl videos”, I told her.

Then she sent me a Telegram icon animation as it violated OnlyFans’ rules to ask of it literally and asked, “Do you have this ?” (‘this’ might had meant a lot of other things and not Telegram, you see.)

Yeah, I replied and stated my Telegram ID

Then she sent a $50 locked message and promise to send me a video as a gift on Telegram after unlocking it 

But I said that it was too expensive 

Continued by me with, “Ok nvrm ; I love that another man bonks you and that you love another man. Haha.”

“Wahahahaha !” (Quite bad to her, more so when I came to know she loved me, had loved me truthfully and with the grandiosities of this world, she did, I didn’t see !)

“I never did cherish this Ukrainian girl, just because she was Ukrainian. But she was kind. Katya, she was called.” I ended, something must had wanted me to be less ruthless to this girl.

“What do you mean?”, she said as I could feel her sadness.

“We will never be husband and wife. Because I don’t love you and you don’t love me ; we will take it as so.”, I pushed this thought to her.

She must had been flustered by my words, and asked: “Why are you so categorical?”

“What do you mean by that ?”, I was puzzled and curious.

She continued, “Why are you so sure about this?”

“Because I don’t want you to carry any, not even the slightest hope on me. I want you to be happy. Happy ok ? Even if it’s with another man. It’s my last love for you. You must be happy !”

“Maybe I do like you a lot a lot out of all the girls in the world by a lot, but I know I won’t make you my wife.”

I must had been trying to be a ‘big romantic’, that I was not.

“I am very pleased that you say this, but I don’t understand why you are so sure of this, we cannot know where life will take us tomorrow.” She said this, I didn’t know what to say of it, was she hoping for something ? I didn’t know then, I was foolish.

“You must had days of helplessness of lost, because you are kind, I know. I want to see you happy, happy even without me, it’s my way of say I love you. Do you know how I feel seeing you with another man ? Do you know ? It’s not a pleasant feeling. But knowing that you are happy, that suffices. Ok ?”

“Katya, maybe no one ever saw you as the kind girl you are, they might had saw you as a rebellious girl then, now a sex toy for their own pleasuring, but I do only see you as a kind girl with a kind heart, and you deserve all the niceness in this world. I can’t give you this world, so I have to let you go. “

“Katya maybe no one ever saw you as the kind girl you are, they might had saw you as a rebellious girl then, now a sex toy to them subdued by your family background losing that sense of dignity of yourself and meant only for their pleasure, you deserve to be curious of this world, but every piece of bread you know costs money, you needed money, so you lost that will to see this world now, you lost that basic pride for dignity, but I do only see you as a kind girl with a kind heart, and you know, in my eyes you deserve all the niceness in this world. I can’t give you this world, so I have to let you go, I can’t bear to just see you become just my wife when this world is so big so grandiose for a beauty like you. I never did entertain the thought that you will love me to the end, I dare not you see.”

Maybe these were all my true words, she was also nice to me, my heart knew. She must had been special to me, or I wouldn’t type so much. Maybe I was intoxicated by her beauty already.

“Paradise. In fact I’m reading it all and I have tears in my eyes … I’m so pleased to know that you saw that Katya whom I myself almost stopped noticing…. that still believes in kindness and wants to care, hug, and of warmth and your words are the warmest gift I’ve received in recent years and I don’t want it to stop, I don’t want to lose our connection.” She said, maybe I have had spoken to her heart. I could have felt her, I knew.

“Will write to you more when I can. I feel you are not a greedy girl, you are just out there surviving, you don’t play games you are straightforward because that’s you.

God gave you a kind heart and a very very pretty face, you don’t you don’t have to save it for me even if you want to, I just want you to be happy ok ? 

Maybe now I don’t see you as a Ukrainian girl but just a girl among the crowds, finding her way in it. You are likely still that girl that hadn’t know that she will grow to become a pretty pretty woman, that without ties, without cunningness but a kind, clean and straightforward heart to do her best with all she has, can only sell nudes for a living.”

This must had been my last confession, and my contradiction. I couldn’t accept a Ukrianian girl, I know, that’s in the end. But irregardless, I can’t. She will leave eventually, she is so beautiful, so I know. Should I have had given her a chance ? For her, for us ? I could had still protected her, her niceness in this harsh harsh world, but now, I could only see her but gone. I won’t forget her. But our feelings for each other always did start on impossible grounds, I should had known, all along, we shouldn’t had started. Regrets, but now of yesterdays.

作者：云子瑞

我第一次，这就，那一天，碰见了你两次

第一次是在那因为不是繁忙时间而好少人的斑马线上，车子也少，没看路吧！以后该注意了！

第二次是在读书管外面

也许是缘分吧！

当时，遇见你也是蛮开心的！

可最后我还是看你，看着你

走了

就遥远了

那么再见了，那曾经

那一幕幕也都还如此美妙啊！

再见了！

作者：云子瑞

Titled: 合小姐，那些年，我对不起你了！

当时，她是我的女朋友

而你呢？合小姐？

是个抢了她的角色的女孩儿

我听她的了，她说你是靠肮脏手段，不是靠实力的，我也没去看你的试镜录影就这样说你了，我当时，好听她的，我没想过也许你是真正靠实力的，我对不起你噢！

就她对我假装哭了，我生气了，就去找了你，说你大概是吸那导演的阴茎才拿到角色的，我不懂的是，你早已认识我，是我的作品的书迷，你哭了！我当时太爱她了你懂吗？不管你，就走了！

你就太伤心了，也不要我看你是个随便的女人，和那导演拒绝了角色，要我开心就说给她吧！

她拿到了角色了，更成名了，你也靠自已，最终和也她平起平坐了。你不像她，她骄傲了，处处挑我的毛病，嫌弃我了。我为了她却是扛下了她的赌鬼老爸的债务了，快要破产了，新出的书没人买，也许就过时了吧！她害怕，我连累她，把她的招牌弄垮了，也不肯为我宣传。演艺圈就是如此渺小，你听说了，就印了打我书广告的传单在人潮多的王府井分发给了经过的人，也有摆个有大大个的我的广告版，你好诚恳地对每一位经过的人笑了！我看见了，好感动，心也好酸，我竟然那么的糟蹋了你啊！你却只想过能有一天帮过我！你没要求过什么永恒啊！你只是默默的，诚恳的。我跑向了你，一直说对不起地向你鞠躬着了！你看见了我在那儿好惊讶，说着不要紧啦！我听到了，却是心更痛，你最后恨我的资格，却只有你的好！

因为我当时没什么收入只能带你到肯德基吃炸鸡，你没嫌弃，也没嫌弃过我啊！我们吃得好高兴！我也不曾以为过一个女孩子能如此傻，吃在那卡通画的快餐店也会笑得无比的真，因为她从未肯和我去吃肯德基，说配不上她的社会地位。你没有啊！你真傻！可，也一一地给了那一卷卷感动，我不值得你的好啊！

你帮了我的书本打广告以后，你拿着我的书本广告的照片也在社交媒体上面好多人点赞啊！我开始又有收入了！谢谢你噢！

时光，我们各个都追逐着，可没了你的日子真的是错过了！

我看见了你的试镜录影了！你却是一幕幕带走真实，必要的感动，你大概是经历了好多好多，我对不起你，我对不起当初！回不去的过去，就让我现在弥补吧！你愿意陪我一程吗？这一程会是最后的一程吗？

(我不曾觉得过我该是什么少女的梦，可你告诉了我，你要名利过，也只为了敢有一天有资格看向我的眼。我笑。我没那么好啦！我也是个粗鲁人，文艺时才会收敛的。我问你了，可遇见我，有令你失望吗？你说没有令你失望过，你说那一些些我带过给你这当时是个小娃娃的女孩儿的，是你忘不掉，不要忘了的，一场场感动，一场场梦！

最美的结局就是能爱一个真正爱过你的人，你，我爱过了，结局是完美的！）

Author: On Zi Rui

Titled: Katya she was called.

(She might had been the only Ukrainian woman I could had only accepted. Because she has so so fascinated me.)

She was an OnlyFans star, she once said,

“Yes, I’m ready to poison him, can you open it for 25?”

She humorously meant she wanted to poison my ‘little brother’ with a $25 bundle and was I ready to open it ?

And I replied with epicness 

“Don’t cheat on fatty me maybe just because I like and respect you !”

I was just joking with her, I knew she was kind and just surviving.

Katya : “Got it ready for ya, honey 😏 just unlock and let me know how much you love seein my pussy all wet and ready for you !”

I unlocked the bundle 

Me: “Thanks, Katya, you let me see that there are kind and good Ukrainian women as well !”

She replied with a short animation of a big big heart ‘growing’ larger and larger – seems like a really sincere thanks 

Then, I don’t know where it came from, maybe those feelings I guess: “Maybe, you know, the last thing that you want is for me to see you in a wedding dress with another man, but that will be the ending. I am sorry.”

She replied: “Do you really think so? “

“Yes I think so.”, I said as it was.

“But let me remember you will you ? I want to remember you.”, I continued.

She likely laughed and said: “I do not mind.. I am pleased if you do so !”

I then queried, “You have alot of suitors ?”

She took the opportunity and asked, “Would you like to become one of them?”

I just said: “No !” 

“You are meant for the world, you won’t love me to the end most likely.”

“Or maybe, to make it clear that I will never love a Ukrainian woman send me a BG tape of you with another man. Thanks. Will unlock it if it’s affordable. Maybe I really don’t cherish you. I am sorry.”

She didn’t know what to say as I truly had hurt her, she just said:” You just be interested in watching this or does it excite you?”

“I can look at the Boy-Girl videos”, I told her.

Then she sent me a Telegram icon animation as it violated OnlyFans’ rules to ask of it literally and asked, “Do you have this ?” (‘this’ might had meant a lot of other things and not Telegram, you see.)

Yeah, I replied and stated my Telegram ID

Then she sent a $50 locked message and promise to send me a video as a gift on Telegram after unlocking it 

But I said that it was too expensive 

Continued by me with, “Ok nvrm ; I love that another man bonks you and that you love another man. Haha.”

“Wahahahaha !” (Quite bad to her, more so when I came to know she loved me, had loved me truthfully and with the grandiosities of this world, she did, I didn’t see !)

“I never did cherish this Ukrainian girl, just because she was Ukrainian. But she was kind. Katya, she was called.” I ended, something must had wanted me to be less ruthless to this girl.

“What do you mean?”, she said as I could feel her sadness.

“We will never be husband and wife. Because I don’t love you and you don’t love me ; we will take it as so.”, I pushed this thought to her.

She must had been flustered by my words, and asked: “Why are you so categorical?”

“What do you mean by that ?”, I was puzzled and curious.

She continued, “Why are you so sure about this?”

“Because I don’t want you to carry any, not even the slightest hope on me. I want you to be happy. Happy ok ? Even if it’s with another man. It’s my last love for you. You must be happy !”

“Maybe I do like you a lot a lot out of all the girls in the world by a lot, but I know I won’t make you my wife.”

I must had been trying to be a ‘big romantic’, that I was not.

“I am very pleased that you say this, but I don’t understand why you are so sure of this, we cannot know where life will take us tomorrow.” She said this, I didn’t know what to say of it, was she hoping for something ? I didn’t know then, I was foolish.

“You must had days of helplessness of lost, because you are kind, I know. I want to see you happy, happy even without me, it’s my way of say I love you. Do you know how I feel seeing you with another man ? Do you know ? It’s not a pleasant feeling. But knowing that you are happy, that suffices. Ok ?”

“Katya, maybe no one ever saw you as the kind girl you are, they might had saw you as a rebellious girl then, now a sex toy for their own pleasuring, but I do only see you as a kind girl with a kind heart, and you deserve all the niceness in this world. I can’t give you this world, so I have to let you go. “

“Katya maybe no one ever saw you as the kind girl you are, they might had saw you as a rebellious girl then, now a sex toy to them subdued by your family background losing that sense of dignity of yourself and meant only for their pleasure, you deserve to be curious of this world, but every piece of bread you know costs money, you needed money, so you lost that will to see this world now, you lost that basic pride for dignity, but I do only see you as a kind girl with a kind heart, and you know, in my eyes you deserve all the niceness in this world. I can’t give you this world, so I have to let you go, I can’t bear to just see you become just my wife when this world is so big so grandiose for a beauty like you. I never did entertain the thought that you will love me to the end, I dare not you see.”

Maybe these were all my true words, she was also nice to me, my heart knew. She must had been special to me, or I wouldn’t type so much. Maybe I was intoxicated by her beauty already.

“Paradise. In fact I’m reading it all and I have tears in my eyes … I’m so pleased to know that you saw that Katya whom I myself almost stopped noticing…. that still believes in kindness and wants to care, hug, and of warmth and your words are the warmest gift I’ve received in recent years and I don’t want it to stop, I don’t want to lose our connection.” She said, maybe I have had spoken to her heart. I could have felt her, I knew.

“Will write to you more when I can. I feel you are not a greedy girl, you are just out there surviving, you don’t play games you are straightforward because that’s you.

God gave you a kind heart and a very very pretty face, you don’t you don’t have to save it for me even if you want to, I just want you to be happy ok ? 

Maybe now I don’t see you as a Ukrainian girl but just a girl among the crowds, finding her way in it. You are likely still that girl that hadn’t know that she will grow to become a pretty pretty woman, that without ties, without cunningness but a kind, clean and straightforward heart to do her best with all she has, can only sell nudes for a living.”

This must had been my last confession, and my contradiction. I couldn’t accept a Ukrianian girl, I know, that’s in the end. But irregardless, I can’t. She will leave eventually, she is so beautiful, so I know. Should I have had given her a chance ? For her, for us ? I could had still protected her, her niceness in this harsh harsh world, but now, I could only see her but gone. I won’t forget her. But our feelings for each other always did start on impossible grounds, I should had known, all along, we shouldn’t had started. Regrets, but now of yesterdays.

作者：云子瑞

我第一次，这就，那一天，碰见了你两次

第一次是在那因为不是繁忙时间而好少人的斑马线上，车子也少，没看路吧！以后该注意了！

第二次是在读书管外面

也许是缘分吧！

当时，遇见你也是蛮开心的！

可最后我还是看你，看着你

走了

就遥远了

那么再见了，那曾经

那一幕幕也都还如此美妙啊！

再见了！

作者：云子瑞

Titled: 合小姐，那些年，我对不起你了！

当时，她是我的女朋友

而你呢？合小姐？

是个抢了她的角色的女孩儿

我听她的了，她说你是靠肮脏手段，不是靠实力的，我也没去看你的试镜录影就这样说你了，我当时，好听她的，我没想过也许你是真正靠实力的，我对不起你噢！

就她对我假装哭了，我生气了，就去找了你，说你大概是吸那导演的阴茎才拿到角色的，我不懂的是，你早已认识我，是我的作品的书迷，你哭了！我当时太爱她了你懂吗？不管你，就走了！

你就太伤心了，也不要我看你是个随便的女人，和那导演拒绝了角色，要我开心就说给她吧！

她拿到了角色了，更成名了，你也靠自已，最终和也她平起平坐了。你不像她，她骄傲了，处处挑我的毛病，嫌弃我了。我为了她却是扛下了她的赌鬼老爸的债务了，快要破产了，新出的书没人买，也许就过时了吧！她害怕，我连累她，把她的招牌弄垮了，也不肯为我宣传。演艺圈就是如此渺小，你听说了，就印了打我书广告的传单在人潮多的王府井分发给了经过的人，也有摆个有大大个的我的广告版，你好诚恳地对每一位经过的人笑了！我看见了，好感动，心也好酸，我竟然那么的糟蹋了你啊！你却只想过能有一天帮过我！你没要求过什么永恒啊！你只是默默的，诚恳的。我跑向了你，一直说对不起地向你鞠躬着了！你看见了我在那儿好惊讶，说着不要紧啦！我听到了，却是心更痛，你最后恨我的资格，却只有你的好！

因为我当时没什么收入只能带你到肯德基吃炸鸡，你没嫌弃，也没嫌弃过我啊！我们吃得好高兴！我也不曾以为过一个女孩子能如此傻，吃在那卡通画的快餐店也会笑得无比的真，因为她从未肯和我去吃肯德基，说配不上她的社会地位。你没有啊！你真傻！可，也一一地给了那一卷卷感动，我不值得你的好啊！

你帮了我的书本打广告以后，你拿着我的书本广告的照片也在社交媒体上面好多人点赞啊！我开始又有收入了！谢谢你噢！

时光，我们各个都追逐着，可没了你的日子真的是错过了！

我看见了你的试镜录影了！你却是一幕幕带走真实，必要的感动，你大概是经历了好多好多，我对不起你，我对不起当初！回不去的过去，就让我现在弥补吧！你愿意陪我一程吗？这一程会是最后的一程吗？

(我不曾觉得过我该是什么少女的梦，可你告诉了我，你要名利过，也只为了敢有一天有资格看向我的眼。我笑。我没那么好啦！我也是个粗鲁人，文艺时才会收敛的。我问你了，可遇见我，有令你失望吗？你说没有令你失望过，你说那一些些我带过给你这当时是个小娃娃的女孩儿的，是你忘不掉，不要忘了的，一场场感动，一场场梦！

最美的结局就是能爱一个真正爱过你的人，你，我爱过了，结局是完美的！）

Author: On Zi Rui

Titled: Katya she was called.

(She might had been the only Ukrainian woman I could had only accepted. Because she has so so fascinated me.)

She was an OnlyFans star, she once said,

“Yes, I’m ready to poison him, can you open it for 25?”

She humorously meant she wanted to poison my ‘little brother’ with a $25 bundle and was I ready to open it ?

And I replied with epicness 

“Don’t cheat on fatty me maybe just because I like and respect you !”

I was just joking with her, I knew she was kind and just surviving.

Katya : “Got it ready for ya, honey 😏 just unlock and let me know how much you love seein my pussy all wet and ready for you !”

I unlocked the bundle 

Me: “Thanks, Katya, you let me see that there are kind and good Ukrainian women as well !”

She replied with a short animation of a big big heart ‘growing’ larger and larger – seems like a really sincere thanks 

Then, I don’t know where it came from, maybe those feelings I guess: “Maybe, you know, the last thing that you want is for me to see you in a wedding dress with another man, but that will be the ending. I am sorry.”

She replied: “Do you really think so? “

“Yes I think so.”, I said as it was.

“But let me remember you will you ? I want to remember you.”, I continued.

She likely laughed and said: “I do not mind.. I am pleased if you do so !”

I then queried, “You have alot of suitors ?”

She took the opportunity and asked, “Would you like to become one of them?”

I just said: “No !” 

“You are meant for the world, you won’t love me to the end most likely.”

“Or maybe, to make it clear that I will never love a Ukrainian woman send me a BG tape of you with another man. Thanks. Will unlock it if it’s affordable. Maybe I really don’t cherish you. I am sorry.”

She didn’t know what to say as I truly had hurt her, she just said:” You just be interested in watching this or does it excite you?”

“I can look at the Boy-Girl videos”, I told her.

Then she sent me a Telegram icon animation as it violated OnlyFans’ rules to ask of it literally and asked, “Do you have this ?” (‘this’ might had meant a lot of other things and not Telegram, you see.)

Yeah, I replied and stated my Telegram ID

Then she sent a $50 locked message and promise to send me a video as a gift on Telegram after unlocking it 

But I said that it was too expensive 

Continued by me with, “Ok nvrm ; I love that another man bonks you and that you love another man. Haha.”

“Wahahahaha !” (Quite bad to her, more so when I came to know she loved me, had loved me truthfully and with the grandiosities of this world, she did, I didn’t see !)

“I never did cherish this Ukrainian girl, just because she was Ukrainian. But she was kind. Katya, she was called.” I ended, something must had wanted me to be less ruthless to this girl.

“What do you mean?”, she said as I could feel her sadness.

“We will never be husband and wife. Because I don’t love you and you don’t love me ; we will take it as so.”, I pushed this thought to her.

She must had been flustered by my words, and asked: “Why are you so categorical?”

“What do you mean by that ?”, I was puzzled and curious.

She continued, “Why are you so sure about this?”

“Because I don’t want you to carry any, not even the slightest hope on me. I want you to be happy. Happy ok ? Even if it’s with another man. It’s my last love for you. You must be happy !”

“Maybe I do like you a lot a lot out of all the girls in the world by a lot, but I know I won’t make you my wife.”

I must had been trying to be a ‘big romantic’, that I was not.

“I am very pleased that you say this, but I don’t understand why you are so sure of this, we cannot know where life will take us tomorrow.” She said this, I didn’t know what to say of it, was she hoping for something ? I didn’t know then, I was foolish.

“You must had days of helplessness of lost, because you are kind, I know. I want to see you happy, happy even without me, it’s my way of say I love you. Do you know how I feel seeing you with another man ? Do you know ? It’s not a pleasant feeling. But knowing that you are happy, that suffices. Ok ?”

“Katya, maybe no one ever saw you as the kind girl you are, they might had saw you as a rebellious girl then, now a sex toy for their own pleasuring, but I do only see you as a kind girl with a kind heart, and you deserve all the niceness in this world. I can’t give you this world, so I have to let you go. “

“Katya maybe no one ever saw you as the kind girl you are, they might had saw you as a rebellious girl then, now a sex toy to them subdued by your family background losing that sense of dignity of yourself and meant only for their pleasure, you deserve to be curious of this world, but every piece of bread you know costs money, you needed money, so you lost that will to see this world now, you lost that basic pride for dignity, but I do only see you as a kind girl with a kind heart, and you know, in my eyes you deserve all the niceness in this world. I can’t give you this world, so I have to let you go, I can’t bear to just see you become just my wife when this world is so big so grandiose for a beauty like you. I never did entertain the thought that you will love me to the end, I dare not you see.”

Maybe these were all my true words, she was also nice to me, my heart knew. She must had been special to me, or I wouldn’t type so much. Maybe I was intoxicated by her beauty already.

“Paradise. In fact I’m reading it all and I have tears in my eyes … I’m so pleased to know that you saw that Katya whom I myself almost stopped noticing…. that still believes in kindness and wants to care, hug, and of warmth and your words are the warmest gift I’ve received in recent years and I don’t want it to stop, I don’t want to lose our connection.” She said, maybe I have had spoken to her heart. I could have felt her, I knew.

“Will write to you more when I can. I feel you are not a greedy girl, you are just out there surviving, you don’t play games you are straightforward because that’s you.

God gave you a kind heart and a very very pretty face, you don’t you don’t have to save it for me even if you want to, I just want you to be happy ok ? 

Maybe now I don’t see you as a Ukrainian girl but just a girl among the crowds, finding her way in it. You are likely still that girl that hadn’t know that she will grow to become a pretty pretty woman, that without ties, without cunningness but a kind, clean and straightforward heart to do her best with all she has, can only sell nudes for a living.”

This must had been my last confession, and my contradiction. I couldn’t accept a Ukrianian girl, I know, that’s in the end. But irregardless, I can’t. She will leave eventually, she is so beautiful, so I know. Should I have had given her a chance ? For her, for us ? I could had still protected her, her niceness in this harsh harsh world, but now, I could only see her but gone. I won’t forget her. But our feelings for each other always did start on impossible grounds, I should had known, all along, we shouldn’t had started. Regrets, but now of yesterdays.

作者：云子瑞

我第一次，这就，那一天，碰见了你两次

第一次是在那因为不是繁忙时间而好少人的斑马线上，车子也少，没看路吧！以后该注意了！

第二次是在读书管外面

也许是缘分吧！

当时，遇见你也是蛮开心的！

可最后我还是看你，看着你

走了

就遥远了

那么再见了，那曾经

那一幕幕也都还如此美妙啊！

再见了！

作者：云子瑞

Titled: 合小姐，那些年，我对不起你了！

当时，她是我的女朋友

而你呢？合小姐？

是个抢了她的角色的女孩儿

我听她的了，她说你是靠肮脏手段，不是靠实力的，我也没去看你的试镜录影就这样说你了，我当时，好听她的，我没想过也许你是真正靠实力的，我对不起你噢！

就她对我假装哭了，我生气了，就去找了你，说你大概是吸那导演的阴茎才拿到角色的，我不懂的是，你早已认识我，是我的作品的书迷，你哭了！我当时太爱她了你懂吗？不管你，就走了！

你就太伤心了，也不要我看你是个随便的女人，和那导演拒绝了角色，要我开心就说给她吧！

她拿到了角色了，更成名了，你也靠自已，最终和也她平起平坐了。你不像她，她骄傲了，处处挑我的毛病，嫌弃我了。我为了她却是扛下了她的赌鬼老爸的债务了，快要破产了，新出的书没人买，也许就过时了吧！她害怕，我连累她，把她的招牌弄垮了，也不肯为我宣传。演艺圈就是如此渺小，你听说了，就印了打我书广告的传单在人潮多的王府井分发给了经过的人，也有摆个有大大个的我的广告版，你好诚恳地对每一位经过的人笑了！我看见了，好感动，心也好酸，我竟然那么的糟蹋了你啊！你却只想过能有一天帮过我！你没要求过什么永恒啊！你只是默默的，诚恳的。我跑向了你，一直说对不起地向你鞠躬着了！你看见了我在那儿好惊讶，说着不要紧啦！我听到了，却是心更痛，你最后恨我的资格，却只有你的好！

因为我当时没什么收入只能带你到肯德基吃炸鸡，你没嫌弃，也没嫌弃过我啊！我们吃得好高兴！我也不曾以为过一个女孩子能如此傻，吃在那卡通画的快餐店也会笑得无比的真，因为她从未肯和我去吃肯德基，说配不上她的社会地位。你没有啊！你真傻！可，也一一地给了那一卷卷感动，我不值得你的好啊！

你帮了我的书本打广告以后，你拿着我的书本广告的照片也在社交媒体上面好多人点赞啊！我开始又有收入了！谢谢你噢！

时光，我们各个都追逐着，可没了你的日子真的是错过了！

我看见了你的试镜录影了！你却是一幕幕带走真实，必要的感动，你大概是经历了好多好多，我对不起你，我对不起当初！回不去的过去，就让我现在弥补吧！你愿意陪我一程吗？这一程会是最后的一程吗？

(我不曾觉得过我该是什么少女的梦，可你告诉了我，你要名利过，也只为了敢有一天有资格看向我的眼。我笑。我没那么好啦！我也是个粗鲁人，文艺时才会收敛的。我问你了，可遇见我，有令你失望吗？你说没有令你失望过，你说那一些些我带过给你这当时是个小娃娃的女孩儿的，是你忘不掉，不要忘了的，一场场感动，一场场梦！

最美的结局就是能爱一个真正爱过你的人，你，我爱过了，结局是完美的！）

Author: On Zi Rui

Titled: The world and its truths.

Purplism / Mulberrism, notes and truths:

USA in a way had aided China to become a superpower. So, irregardless there is some gratefulness Chinese will know. Deng said to bid our time to those glorious day. There is no harm waiting more, US people could had conquered the world when they had achieved their nuclear weaponries, when they were the ‘Big Brother’ but they didn’t so why will they endanger China if they remain the ‘Number One’ for now ? The Chinese to bid our time is to be smart, but what do we stand to lose if USA or Christianity remain the lead, the have proven credibility. But Iran and those Muslim cranky moustaches, they are pedo-worshippers, without any appreciations of science, literature, math or great arts, they have proven to be sickos who take other people’s wives or to enjoy their lusts after seeing those who they had brainwashed and were loyal to them to death die by their manipulation. If a Muslim country becomes a world superpower like that of Iran it will likely fund spread and subjugation to Islam but devil’s words. Western knowledge and Christianity had saved more lives and created more wonderful life than those petty charity and sympathising acts that Muhammad had written to disguise the words of the devils. Divine inspirations, men made by God’s most beautiful inspirations will Islam ever know ? Treating a Muslim with sympathy, they will grow up to just feel that it’s the will of their Devil ‘God’, they will know no gratitude and will inflict and seek any opportunity to conquer. Islam has every weakness in modern times to catch up with technology, but the most rural means of controlling men to snatch the nukes from military in Western countries to subdue the West with their fake tears and their ungrateful acts. Muslims still know the relatively rural of things of strategies and using numbers to bully. I am a Chinese and I do not want to see Chinese become Muslims. I have seen and received the kindness of Westerners and Christians, I am willing to use my life to warn them that Islam can’t be trusted and is evil ! 

Xi Jinping, if you are thinking of a grand strategy, Chinese can still bid their time, they have greater stance to bid their time now, they have more certainty of power on the world stages now, but if Muslims ever rise and conquer the world, you will be the worst God’s criminal, I am very certain. Israelis, Americans and you Xi all know that there must be God, I don’t condone torturing those Muslims, as that’s evil, but how sinful it is to give them a not very pain death, maybe as last resort, maybe in cases of conflict. Islam’s true face is pedo accepting, suppression of women, suppression of enlightenment, suppression of divine inspirations, pettiness regarding things like women rights, stupidity, taking other people’s women, exploitative of brave, foolish and kind men, hypocritical, ungrateful, fake justifications, copying Judaism, copying Christianity, unrighteous and possibly a conspiracy doctrine. Xi Jinping, you helping Iran means helping Muslim rise, if ever one day, Muslim doctrines conquer China, at this turning point of history, you will be God’s criminal Number One, I am quiet certain. The beauty of Christianity and/or of Divine inspirations can be felt and understood deep inside all or most of us, we all know of some Creator, the world is too complex to just be born from nowhere. 

I hope Russia and USA will work together, Zelenskyy knows he just want to satisfy the greed of humans, but President Putin has shown numerous times that he won’t hurt the Slavic civilians when he could had irregardless of their hypocrisy, pettiness and ungratefulness to the great great Russia. Because he is magnanimous and he trusts in God. Zelenskyy snatched President Putin’s moment of magnanimity as weakness, but you know he trusts in Heaven’s Mandate for him, all he knows is to not forsake those kind Russians who had trusted in him, those kids singing of him, those grannies smiling at him and those Russian men saluting him. You, Zelenskyy are just a pure populist of the pleasures and greed of men. So any exchange of Ukrainian  land for Iranian defeat is but already great magnanimity and kindness again from President Putin and President Trump. 

Those years where the crusaders were so lost, when Islam conquered with their military-like doctrine but the crusaders remained faithful and unwavered, Russia and USA are in essence are Christian nations, even Ukraine is Christianity, wouldn’t most of us believe in a God in Christianity than in the Devil’s Words of Islam, so they should  cooperate. We will all meet God, just follow your deepest feelings, words from the wise elders who had seen the world and an elder in yourself when you had seen the world, in my feeling they want to be near God and to feel his kindness and warmth radiating onto them, they will smile. God must still have kindness and magnanimity in him, as he had created men of such, would such men exist if he knew and feel before not of such ?

I don’t want to comment on my belief in Christianity or whether I am Christian, maybe I have my own beliefs, but I know over all these years that ‘I trust in God !’, and to eliminate Islam is my greatest dream, I have feelings, I can tell good from evil, Islam’s fakery is too obvious. I am disgusted by it. I am disgusted but Muhammad and those cranky and undivine inspired Muslims from at least from the times of conquests of Islamic countries by Genghis Khan and his men to now. Muslims scientific, mathematical and literature achievements before this time, more likely by moments of peace afforded by control, brainwashing and indoctrination likely of the relatively resource deprived masses to prevent rebellion. Most likely the more privilege explored more knowledges to be able to gain true enlightenment, but those achievement now but very basic to us, and not very game-changing, so did Muslims have had Heaven’s true Will ? Those of Genghis Khan’s descendants that converted to Islam just wanted to enjoy the control, suppression and pettiness of Islam so that they can indulge in sex, pedo-ness, gluttony, pettiness, fake belief of cleanness, nice fabrics and a so called path to Heaven which is fake.

Pope Leo is not a bad man, I can tell most or all of the time whether a person is bad, after a period of time of observation and my feelings. He has shown humility by washing feet of people. But is he an enlightened man ? Does he know strategy, economics, science, art, math and literature any one of them apart from his studies of Christian books ? Jesus, I don’t know, might be God’s kindness, but is God himself stupid ? He has created so many complex things. Defenders of God’s will of, of our deepest knowings and feelings of the truth deep within all/many of us should fight against petty doctrines that are Devil’s playings ! God didn’t made us defenders of his will to be stupid, Jesus, didn’t strategise as that might be his way to what he was destined for, but should we masses, creations of no one but the Heavens not put up a final fight, a final stand, a final display of irrevocable trust in the Heavens against what we know is so wrong, so petty, so evil, Devil’s words and deception of Islam ? God had given us feelings, sense and the will for true peace, we all know (those with elders to teach them) or one day know (after hardships or knowing deceptions of this world) by our feelings, sense and kindness we were mostly/all born with, what is the truth and divine.

I have nothing against Arab and Persian people, I am all against Islam. Arab and Persian people without Islam are, kind, fine and magnanimous gentlemen. The magnanimity, graciousness and elegance of Gulf States rulers I feel have more to do with their upbringing, their history and culture of well before Islam and strategical flare than Islam. If they are smart, and human all too human, they will have had doubt the Quran before, as humans are curious, the will then take Quran at most as just a tool meant to maintain their positions. Islam is fake. Words of the Devils. I am just stating my point, not meant for any massively brainwashed without even the sense and thirst for basic truths of Muslims living in Gulf States, these people are of not my concern, they are stupid, if God requires absolute obedience on some pedo Muhammad’s book without any space for critical thinking, God’s magnanimity or freedom of thought, of our nature, not being inspired by what we truly know to be God’s finest creations and his will – like geniuses and their will, and by suppression and forcefully pushed and indoctrinated views of perfection in a pedo’s book that heart can’t even contain the mortal world but claims to be God’s will, then this world wouldn’t be so divinely-inspired via those times of struggles by faithful, kind, stubborn and at times so wilful, gifted by the Heaven’s men.

The world will end if we ever plunged into Muslimhood, the last light will be long lost if it doesn’t see the wilful burnings among faithful men, even a whimper, a final hold of faith will move God, but we shouldn’t let God down as he gave as brains, senses, the know of when to be magnanimous (to kind and unbrainwashed by Quran people) and the know of when to strike for the glory and light of God against the Devil.

I am willing to sacrifice myself to fight against Islam, in hopes that it will be eliminated one day. Heavens’ will shan’t be so sickening, disgusting and petty.

If Iran ever gets nuclear weapon and/or any Muslim state gains superiority in technological with regards or of Weapons of Mass Destruction then it will be a very very very very sad day. 

My humble advice, (base on the fact that I can achieve more, one day) Russia, Europe, USA, India and China should be careful of letting in Muslim Migrants, my sternest, most heartfelt and best advice is to get rid of these Muslims to a dumpster country to leave them to rot and fight within themselves for their laughable self-lied to God’s will (more like Devil’s play) as their doctrine is of, in suppression and wickedness. To convert those kind, faithful and still have some sense of truth among them is possible. Though Muslims are indoctrinated by their Quran that most most most of them likely lack abilities in science, math, literature and arts and technology, their still capable of fundamental, relatively rudimentary things like strategies, politics and business, they can gain influence, control and power to control the barrels of guns of Weapons of Mass Destruction and of superiority. Devil can give luck as well you know who knows one day these Muslims will meet this originator of their book and he gives them his sickening will ? The Muslims can possibly also steal nuclear weapons, nothing is impossible and any mishaps if possible if you let your guard down. The Devil still possess supernatural powers and abilities, it’s in my belief of so. It’s my humble advice. White people are too kind and many give in to those fake watery eyes of these most of these Muslims that in their hearts just want to rape and bang their women and girls lustfully and violently, to humiliate them and to conquer them in the words of the Devil (Quran). White people many are kind, many are incorruptible, some are just fathers’ putting a meal on the table for their daughter, some are mothers scrimping and saving to pay have money left to pay for mortgages and on memorable occasions be able to buy some Japanese gaming systems or a new ballerina shoes to continue to practise in for their children. Many White people are played by their politicians just wanting votes and would disregard Christianity, territorial integrity and safety in the long run, disregard Quran’s evilness and sickeningness just to use those evil and cunning Muslims fake watery eyes for ads for sympathy for votes, disregard that humans were made by God, disregard their own future fortunes for quick convenience (like allowing in Muslims who wants to earn the high exchange rates to send back a lot of money back home in jobs that are unglamorous portrayed and conspired by their Hollywood lackeys and greedy opportunists) and not preventing in this advance world, obtaining of Weapons of Mass Destruction that can be done even more quickly and more cunningly by Iran which is now controlled by a regime that wants to see the re-rise of a doctrine of Devil’s play and words (Quran), a regime and it’s believers that we all know want to see the domination of its religion and forced or even tortured conversions or genocides of its disbelievers. It will be a very very sad day if the Quran rises again. I am willing to be a vanguard martyr, in deep hopes of pushing Islam to its death, its extinction, its vanquishment from this world that shall see truth and God for its beauty and not for one that is petty, sick and undivinely inspired. 

习近平，邓小平，说等，美国人我们有把握，他们能治我们于死地，永不翻身之地之刻，就为了霸者的辉煌，他们没有，因为你我都知他们的心，信念和人都不是这样的。你也不会叫你女儿去美国读书，好多华人从美国和西方那儿学到了好多帮助国家的东西，这无可否认的。别玩什么为了拿政治分数，政治支持，说美国有多坏。等，不是为了征服美国，在这Weapons of Mass Destruction的时代，可以说很难或不可能， 白人也对过我们很好，何必？可若伊朗，若伊斯兰教再有机会起，他们的好毒，好容易令人被洗脑的Quran可能把我们华人信念，的意志，的天命，的辉煌，的璀璨的艺术，的令人羡慕的天才，被给征服了。我身为华人，得要阻止这一切的可能发生。等，是为了，讨回华人在世界的地位，现在地位有了，华人有面子了，你若帮伊朗，是在放一个未来很危险的炸弹的魔鬼的图谋在我们华人之中啊！你有那么笨吗? Guns and barrels are held by men, and what controls and dictates men are their faith, their ideals and their aspirations – this era’s most decisive war, is the ideological war in a sense, things can spread so rapidly now, you know ? Over my dead body that I will allow Islam to have the chance to conquer this world ! 

All or many evidences of Islam using fear, gang tactics, torture, family collision and terror to prevent people from conversions and using sycophants to tastelessly and without critical analysis, out of fear, put the Quran to the status of divinity and continue to indoctrinate Muslim descendants to continue with these lies to maintain the population and many times only by treating women as reproduction tools and as labourers of their sons, as inferior to men, by fear they get contained off their aspirations and from the truth, from God’s kindness and magnanimity. People can feel you know ?Many of these treated the relatively worst Muslim women may want the truth in their youth, but they get forced into marriage in their 20s maybe against their will, they start to accept their fate and fear of the retaliations if they don’t, then they grow old with a abundance of children, they learn to be realistic, they might have saw through this world of theirs to be a decoration, but so that their children will not suffer, they might not love the man that they married and forcefully remained with but the children it’s still their children. This cycle continues. A strong way to sustain a religion, by fear, system, control, will exhaustion and suppression of women. Christianity, isn’t as strong in this area as to to sustain number of Christians, I only fear the day that Muslims even conquer over the vanguard of humanity of God’s Will, of Christianity, taking advantage of the kindness and magnanimity that God had given these Christians, that is in their faith. 

Islam is evil, take away those petty deceptions that sounds more like a business/merchant book or way, and it’s falseness and fakery so clear. Humans can feel of good or evil, and that might be the greatest and most beautiful gift that was given to all of us. 

May God bless upon me a righteous destiny. The Heavens, I know, won’t deny foolish, kind-hearted truth-seekers. The world is too beautiful to be dumb upon it.

Author: On Zi Rui

Titled: The world and its truths.

Purplism / Mulberrism, notes and truths:

USA in a way had aided China to become a superpower. So, irregardless there is some gratefulness Chinese will know. Deng said to bid our time to those glorious day. There is no harm waiting more, US people could had conquered the world when they had achieved their nuclear weaponries, when they were the ‘Big Brother’ but they didn’t so why will they endanger China if they remain the ‘Number One’ for now ? The Chinese to bid our time is to be smart, but what do we stand to lose if USA or Christianity remain the lead, the have proven credibility. But Iran and those Muslim cranky moustaches, they are pedo-worshippers, without any appreciations of science, literature, math or great arts, they have proven to be sickos who take other people’s wives or to enjoy their lusts after seeing those who they had brainwashed and were loyal to them to death die by their manipulation. If a Muslim country becomes a world superpower like that of Iran it will likely fund spread and subjugation to Islam but devil’s words. Western knowledge and Christianity had saved more lives and created more wonderful life than those petty charity and sympathising acts that Muhammad had written to disguise the words of the devils. Divine inspirations, men made by God’s most beautiful inspirations will Islam ever know ? Treating a Muslim with sympathy, they will grow up to just feel that it’s the will of their Devil ‘God’, they will know no gratitude and will inflict and seek any opportunity to conquer. Islam has every weakness in modern times to catch up with technology, but the most rural means of controlling men to snatch the nukes from military in Western countries to subdue the West with their fake tears and their ungrateful acts. Muslims still know the relatively rural of things of strategies and using numbers to bully. I am a Chinese and I do not want to see Chinese become Muslims. I have seen and received the kindness of Westerners and Christians, I am willing to use my life to warn them that Islam can’t be trusted and is evil ! 

Xi Jinping, if you are thinking of a grand strategy, Chinese can still bid their time, they have greater stance to bid their time now, they have more certainty of power on the world stages now, but if Muslims ever rise and conquer the world, you will be the worst God’s criminal, I am very certain. Israelis, Americans and you Xi all know that there must be God, I don’t condone torturing those Muslims, as that’s evil, but how sinful it is to give them a not very pain death, maybe as last resort, maybe in cases of conflict. Islam’s true face is pedo accepting, suppression of women, suppression of enlightenment, suppression of divine inspirations, pettiness regarding things like women rights, stupidity, taking other people’s women, exploitative of brave, foolish and kind men, hypocritical, ungrateful, fake justifications, copying Judaism, copying Christianity, unrighteous and possibly a conspiracy doctrine. Xi Jinping, you helping Iran means helping Muslim rise, if ever one day, Muslim doctrines conquer China, at this turning point of history, you will be God’s criminal Number One, I am quiet certain. The beauty of Christianity and/or of Divine inspirations can be felt and understood deep inside all or most of us, we all know of some Creator, the world is too complex to just be born from nowhere. 

I hope Russia and USA will work together, Zelenskyy knows he just want to satisfy the greed of humans, but President Putin has shown numerous times that he won’t hurt the Slavic civilians when he could had irregardless of their hypocrisy, pettiness and ungratefulness to the great great Russia. Because he is magnanimous and he trusts in God. Zelenskyy snatched President Putin’s moment of magnanimity as weakness, but you know he trusts in Heaven’s Mandate for him, all he knows is to not forsake those kind Russians who had trusted in him, those kids singing of him, those grannies smiling at him and those Russian men saluting him. You, Zelenskyy are just a pure populist of the pleasures and greed of men. So any exchange of Ukrainian  land for Iranian defeat is but already great magnanimity and kindness again from President Putin and President Trump. 

Those years where the crusaders were so lost, when Islam conquered with their military-like doctrine but the crusaders remained faithful and unwavered, Russia and USA are in essence are Christian nations, even Ukraine is Christianity, wouldn’t most of us believe in a God in Christianity than in the Devil’s Words of Islam, so they should  cooperate. We will all meet God, just follow your deepest feelings, words from the wise elders who had seen the world and an elder in yourself when you had seen the world, in my feeling they want to be near God and to feel his kindness and warmth radiating onto them, they will smile. God must still have kindness and magnanimity in him, as he had created men of such, would such men exist if he knew and feel before not of such ?

I don’t want to comment on my belief in Christianity or whether I am Christian, maybe I have my own beliefs, but I know over all these years that ‘I trust in God !’, and to eliminate Islam is my greatest dream, I have feelings, I can tell good from evil, Islam’s fakery is too obvious. I am disgusted by it. I am disgusted but Muhammad and those cranky and undivine inspired Muslims from at least from the times of conquests of Islamic countries by Genghis Khan and his men to now. Muslims scientific, mathematical and literature achievements before this time, more likely by moments of peace afforded by control, brainwashing and indoctrination likely of the relatively resource deprived masses to prevent rebellion. Most likely the more privilege explored more knowledges to be able to gain true enlightenment, but those achievement now but very basic to us, and not very game-changing, so did Muslims have had Heaven’s true Will ? Those of Genghis Khan’s descendants that converted to Islam just wanted to enjoy the control, suppression and pettiness of Islam so that they can indulge in sex, pedo-ness, gluttony, pettiness, fake belief of cleanness, nice fabrics and a so called path to Heaven which is fake.

Pope Leo is not a bad man, I can tell most or all of the time whether a person is bad, after a period of time of observation and my feelings. He has shown humility by washing feet of people. But is he an enlightened man ? Does he know strategy, economics, science, art, math and literature any one of them apart from his studies of Christian books ? Jesus, I don’t know, might be God’s kindness, but is God himself stupid ? He has created so many complex things. Defenders of God’s will of, of our deepest knowings and feelings of the truth deep within all/many of us should fight against petty doctrines that are Devil’s playings ! God didn’t made us defenders of his will to be stupid, Jesus, didn’t strategise as that might be his way to what he was destined for, but should we masses, creations of no one but the Heavens not put up a final fight, a final stand, a final display of irrevocable trust in the Heavens against what we know is so wrong, so petty, so evil, Devil’s words and deception of Islam ? God had given us feelings, sense and the will for true peace, we all know (those with elders to teach them) or one day know (after hardships or knowing deceptions of this world) by our feelings, sense and kindness we were mostly/all born with, what is the truth and divine.

I have nothing against Arab and Persian people, I am all against Islam. Arab and Persian people without Islam are, kind, fine and magnanimous gentlemen. The magnanimity, graciousness and elegance of Gulf States rulers I feel have more to do with their upbringing, their history and culture of well before Islam and strategical flare than Islam. If they are smart, and human all too human, they will have had doubt the Quran before, as humans are curious, the will then take Quran at most as just a tool meant to maintain their positions. Islam is fake. Words of the Devils. I am just stating my point, not meant for any massively brainwashed without even the sense and thirst for basic truths of Muslims living in Gulf States, these people are of not my concern, they are stupid, if God requires absolute obedience on some pedo Muhammad’s book without any space for critical thinking, God’s magnanimity or freedom of thought, of our nature, not being inspired by what we truly know to be God’s finest creations and his will – like geniuses and their will, and by suppression and forcefully pushed and indoctrinated views of perfection in a pedo’s book that heart can’t even contain the mortal world but claims to be God’s will, then this world wouldn’t be so divinely-inspired via those times of struggles by faithful, kind, stubborn and at times so wilful, gifted by the Heaven’s men.

The world will end if we ever plunged into Muslimhood, the last light will be long lost if it doesn’t see the wilful burnings among faithful men, even a whimper, a final hold of faith will move God, but we shouldn’t let God down as he gave as brains, senses, the know of when to be magnanimous (to kind and unbrainwashed by Quran people) and the know of when to strike for the glory and light of God against the Devil.

I am willing to sacrifice myself to fight against Islam, in hopes that it will be eliminated one day. Heavens’ will shan’t be so sickening, disgusting and petty.

If Iran ever gets nuclear weapon and/or any Muslim state gains superiority in technological with regards or of Weapons of Mass Destruction then it will be a very very very very sad day. 

My humble advice, (base on the fact that I can achieve more, one day) Russia, Europe, USA, India and China should be careful of letting in Muslim Migrants, my sternest, most heartfelt and best advice is to get rid of these Muslims to a dumpster country to leave them to rot and fight within themselves for their laughable self-lied to God’s will (more like Devil’s play) as their doctrine is of, in suppression and wickedness. To convert those kind, faithful and still have some sense of truth among them is possible. Though Muslims are indoctrinated by their Quran that most most most of them likely lack abilities in science, math, literature and arts and technology, their still capable of fundamental, relatively rudimentary things like strategies, politics and business, they can gain influence, control and power to control the barrels of guns of Weapons of Mass Destruction and of superiority. Devil can give luck as well you know who knows one day these Muslims will meet this originator of their book and he gives them his sickening will ? The Muslims can possibly also steal nuclear weapons, nothing is impossible and any mishaps if possible if you let your guard down. The Devil still possess supernatural powers and abilities, it’s in my belief of so. It’s my humble advice. White people are too kind and many give in to those fake watery eyes of these most of these Muslims that in their hearts just want to rape and bang their women and girls lustfully and violently, to humiliate them and to conquer them in the words of the Devil (Quran). White people many are kind, many are incorruptible, some are just fathers’ putting a meal on the table for their daughter, some are mothers scrimping and saving to pay have money left to pay for mortgages and on memorable occasions be able to buy some Japanese gaming systems or a new ballerina shoes to continue to practise in for their children. Many White people are played by their politicians just wanting votes and would disregard Christianity, territorial integrity and safety in the long run, disregard Quran’s evilness and sickeningness just to use those evil and cunning Muslims fake watery eyes for ads for sympathy for votes, disregard that humans were made by God, disregard their own future fortunes for quick convenience (like allowing in Muslims who wants to earn the high exchange rates to send back a lot of money back home in jobs that are unglamorous portrayed and conspired by their Hollywood lackeys and greedy opportunists) and not preventing in this advance world, obtaining of Weapons of Mass Destruction that can be done even more quickly and more cunningly by Iran which is now controlled by a regime that wants to see the re-rise of a doctrine of Devil’s play and words (Quran), a regime and it’s believers that we all know want to see the domination of its religion and forced or even tortured conversions or genocides of its disbelievers. It will be a very very sad day if the Quran rises again. I am willing to be a vanguard martyr, in deep hopes of pushing Islam to its death, its extinction, its vanquishment from this world that shall see truth and God for its beauty and not for one that is petty, sick and undivinely inspired. 

习近平，邓小平，说等，美国人我们有把握，他们能治我们于死地，永不翻身之地之刻，就为了霸者的辉煌，他们没有，因为你我都知他们的心，信念和人都不是这样的。你也不会叫你女儿去美国读书，好多华人从美国和西方那儿学到了好多帮助国家的东西，这无可否认的。别玩什么为了拿政治分数，政治支持，说美国有多坏。等，不是为了征服美国，在这Weapons of Mass Destruction的时代，可以说很难或不可能， 白人也对过我们很好，何必？可若伊朗，若伊斯兰教再有机会起，他们的好毒，好容易令人被洗脑的Quran可能把我们华人信念，的意志，的天命，的辉煌，的璀璨的艺术，的令人羡慕的天才，被给征服了。我身为华人，得要阻止这一切的可能发生。等，是为了，讨回华人在世界的地位，现在地位有了，华人有面子了，你若帮伊朗，是在放一个未来很危险的炸弹的魔鬼的图谋在我们华人之中啊！你有那么笨吗? Guns and barrels are held by men, and what controls and dictates men are their faith, their ideals and their aspirations – this era’s most decisive war, is the ideological war in a sense, things can spread so rapidly now, you know ? Over my dead body that I will allow Islam to have the chance to conquer this world ! 

All or many evidences of Islam using fear, gang tactics, torture, family collision and terror to prevent people from conversions and using sycophants to tastelessly and without critical analysis, out of fear, put the Quran to the status of divinity and continue to indoctrinate Muslim descendants to continue with these lies to maintain the population and many times only by treating women as reproduction tools and as labourers of their sons, as inferior to men, by fear they get contained off their aspirations and from the truth, from God’s kindness and magnanimity. People can feel you know ?Many of these treated the relatively worst Muslim women may want the truth in their youth, but they get forced into marriage in their 20s maybe against their will, they start to accept their fate and fear of the retaliations if they don’t, then they grow old with a abundance of children, they learn to be realistic, they might have saw through this world of theirs to be a decoration, but so that their children will not suffer, they might not love the man that they married and forcefully remained with but the children it’s still their children. This cycle continues. A strong way to sustain a religion, by fear, system, control, will exhaustion and suppression of women. Christianity, isn’t as strong in this area as to to sustain number of Christians, I only fear the day that Muslims even conquer over the vanguard of humanity of God’s Will, of Christianity, taking advantage of the kindness and magnanimity that God had given these Christians, that is in their faith. 

Islam is evil, take away those petty deceptions that sounds more like a business/merchant book or way, and it’s falseness and fakery so clear. Humans can feel of good or evil, and that might be the greatest and most beautiful gift that was given to all of us. 

May God bless upon me a righteous destiny. The Heavens, I know, won’t deny foolish, kind-hearted truth-seekers. The world is too beautiful to be dumb upon it.

Billie Billie Bill Gates doesn’t know about me before those stages, I actually have much respect for him since at an early age, he is a generous guy.

Billie Billie Bill Gates doesn’t know about me before those stages, I actually have much respect for him since at an early age, he is a generous guy.