Pamphlet Titled: 霸王梦
(有几人敢梦过它，有几人信了他们主子的天命，牺牲了，就都都是为了讨回一个公道！就因为他们的主子真实过！当时，不做霸王，也罢了，至少会被记为无比的骄勇，没背叛汉人的宿命！可若世间的浪潮，推你向这最高舞台，当你得报那些仇恨，你也懂了，这宿命，不是为了贪图，不是为了享用好多美女，不是为了糟蹋别人，也是为了公道，公道这两个字啊！我从未害怕过，要挣着霸王命也曾不敢想过，可他们从未值得拥有这世界啊！）
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Pamphlet Titled: 不忘初衷
(因为当时也最卑微的了，穿着大大件的衣服，也不懂什么是时尚吧！那些女的也就对我翻白眼了！我忘不掉啊！可懂然而的我不也再寻找这些恶人的认可了，我要更大的风景，她们有着美丽的好贵的衣着，可在这世界里始终是真实才能感动善者，感动那无比雄伟的上天的！）
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Pamphlet Titled: 不忘当初
I (Titled: The Heavens didn’t forsake me, I shan’t forsake its everlasting glory !)
(I dared to die than to be humiliated, maybe there’s something about it then already. Maybe all pasts great men that has had claimed the highest thrones in this world or on the Heavens’ side has had possessed before such unconquerable will, not bestowed by birthrights or petty games, but by irrevocable will ! A will to power, a will to die than to be held under the darkness, when the light they so craved ! If I were to die, I must die like Xiang Yu, but the world has taught me cunningness, so I shan’t die like Xiang Yu, but I will still be great ! If you have thousands of men in front of me, that’s not fearful, it’s if I were to bow down to whimper upon your cheap calls, that will be fearful ! The Heavens’ have never been so closed ! Have never been so closed ! Come hundreds of men, come thousands of men, come millions, I can’t back down now ! I can’t fail the everlasting Heavens !)
However strong Xiang Yu was
As time passed
People had forgotten about those days, those years of invincibility, vigour and undoubted Will of the Heavens – that was then
Those past braveries were long but forgotten
And his enemies pranced upon those moments of chances
The Hegemon King was foolish and kind for a moment – he had just wanted the warmth and smiles of his countrymen
Maybe because he had forgotten of his ways on those merciless fields, he was a 霸王，people came to forget, to see him as but human, has he forsaken Heaven’s Will ?
For he has forsaken the understandings and slyness of men’s hearts
But there were still those loyal to him to the very very end, however bleak it was, they remained un-wavered, maybe every great men will remain great to the very very end, as there will still be those who wholeheartedly seek a light in him – to follow – as their hearts can’t bear a betrayal even when facing an end, a true end !
I have fought numerous men, outnumbered by their cunningness their traps their corruptions, outmanoeuvred by the trickery but those days became what is to be my most glorious, those days I still savour, I was the purest, seeking but for Heavens’ nod ! I can’t say I have not lived, as the Heavens has given me honour when all I dared to ask was his smile, when I was but a nothing, I had never given up in the hope of some sort of destiny, those are far away days ! I still smile !
II (Titled: Xiang Yu, the Hegemon-King of Western Chu)
(20,000 men of Xiang Yu defeated 200,000 men of the Qin Army at the Battle of Julu, who could say that Heavens’ Will was never his ? The Heavens never did defy men like us. It’s when it’s getting darker, not fully dark yet, that hopes and egos they still burn, those glories were never entrapped by birthrights, this I was never taught of, but I knew I wanted to break every strain of those nets laid upon upon birth, I knew I was once just but a taxi driver’s / mover’s and a run-down store’s cashier’s son, but a joke, I never did stop to pursue those grandiose dreams. I never did stop when the world laughed and ridiculed at me, maybe I am laughable. Maybe all I know now is that I want to exceed Xiang Yu. Yes, I want to ! May the Heavens not deny my will !)
Mao Zedong told of his soldiers not to achieve those fame and everlasting glories of Xiang Yu, but to reorganise, regroup and to strike the enemy again !
There was a point that I was willing to die like Xiang Yu, for that fame so everlasting, so rare ! Maybe, if the eagle soars to the Heavens but fearlessly and if this lamentable world asks again but for a hero that it knows it can’t but allow. I laugh at the world’s ignorance. Its pettiness was never worth what my heart can embrace ! I was never close to its petty pettiness. For that once, during those years, I was the proudest boy in this universe. I was never proud of myself, but I knew always, that the world’s pettiness shan’t contain me ! My ambitions were never muzzled by my parentage or birth ! Soar I shall ! Soar I shall ! May I eventually gain but those everlasting glories ! God is discerning ! And I shan’t disappoint !
Maybe those years
I saw the Heavens’ glorious will
Close it was, maybe even within grasps
But I saw it gone in the hands of those scheming greenish bastards !
The Heavens shall still have its plans
I never doubted then
Not now ! Not now !
Maybe I still have that furious magnificent fire burning in me
I think I still have the Will to be Xiang Yu if the world but denies me, in those very ends ! Maybe to be remembered like by all his glories in this sometimes but also fascinating and intoxicating world will be the last honour bestowed by the Heavens upon me, if that day comes !
He fought with those remaining men to the very end
And that meant something ! Really meant something, at least to me
He never saw those men as tools, a men with honour and dignity, those Jiangdong men he might have never knew how to show his remorse to but a final stand, would be his last dazzle to this world, for them !
Those remaining men who fought with him than to cower in hiding, and then after the storm to enjoy those seductions and enjoyments of this world, at least I know, there will be those who will rather fight for an extraordinary man’s Will and his irrevocable destiny than to betray him, those betrayals so filthy, because those ordinary men though ordinary but they still had that scarce sense of loyalty during those turbulent years, they just can’t bring himself to betray that extraordinary man, his Will ! Maybe because they have rode on those adventurous roads with him, and they just can’t forget those years where he was the Hegemon-King of Western Chu ! They must had admired him to the end, and this world shan’t ask for more !
I have seen this world, and this end is befitting of a hero ! I never did forget those years where my ambitions were ridiculed at, denied at due to my parentage. A heroic death to me later, was therefore but a sweet dream, I dreamt aimlessly during those early early years, the dream and Will during these years never did ever perish !
Will the world asks for another hero ?
III (Titled: Those men that rode with the wind, but they were never lost ! )
(In those winds, I could still see their vague images, their greatness soon became clear, they were never truly lost, but vilified and slandered by motives, fear and jealousies ! But they shall had forgotten, there will always be men like us, who never saw those glistening stage lights at our births, and so we crave it more, the world doesn’t know the insurmountable thirst that is of such in us, we had to become more courageous as we had no family members by birth that we can truly rely on, ruthless if time calls sharpened by those relentless disappointments of this world and instincts so perceptive as we had truly seen the hypocrisies of humans’ hearts when we were but nameless among the tightly packed, harsh crowds ! I still laugh to this day, I know how I had bedazzled this world, my gifts and God’s gentle laughter upon me will be remembered, eventually it will be, I stood high where the world was raining devastating punches upon me, I never wallowed, I guess it was all part of this world, my abusive mom made me unafraid unconquerable by this world, this world is so beautiful, but now maybe even it won’t suffice God’s glory !)
They rode with the wind
And history hasn’t been kind to them
As their ambitions shook this world at least for once, it shook !
But the world can’t deny men like us for those forever years !
But how long is forever ?
When the dust is settled, ambitions unbeholden again, they shall rise !
Maybe only a truly just, Heavenly just and righteous world, one without jealousy, of without those soulless looking down eyes, maybe only such a fair world will take away any will to rebel !
But the world is too superficial, peace is but a fairytale stories lied on to kids !
In today’s fast pace world, peace is but a luxury for hermits. I once wanted to be a hermit, those foolish years, but I have long forgotten those years, the world kept beating me down when all I had wanted was a fair fight, it kept beating me down when I believed only in my skills not by underhanded methods, I didn’t lose, I was lost in the world, that was then and so now, I have to rise! It’s irrevocable ! The world must see on the day that I rise ! I will laugh the most brillant on that day, it will be more shiny than the stars on those flags, trust me it will be !
IV (Titled: 我也走过这个大世界)
李家慧
若一个人狠心不是一个病来的，也不是精神分裂症的症状来的。做人要说实话。狠好多时候是被数次陷害，被数次赐予失望，被数次被暗算才会有的。这世界一天存在那些心胸狭窄，只会踏于别人来得到快乐得到心安的人，就慢慢的，那些被踏的人会狠下心的。也许，我说的是自已，也许不是自已，可我现在只要你知道，请别说那么多废话，你也没天份演习，掩盖着的都好好假噢！真令人恶心！实力你有吗？不怕死，你敢吗？天赐予的笑容，你会懂吗？那才是真正的笑容！你不会明白的！
V
当这世界未看见我
我还只是那一个小子
想自已买一盘叉烧饭的小子
看见别人吃着叉烧饭也只吞着口水的小子
可我没吃过别人吃过的！那也许是当时唯有过的底气吧！告诉自已霸于着世界还是有那一个底气的！
VI
我懂找不回曾经了，可曾经还是最美的！
也许是因为奔波时，看见了好多个人
有些人看不起你，觉得你永远都会是个狗
有些人，给了你真心，这些是善者
而这些善者，也点燃了我对世界的希望，点亮了我曾也如此漫长，黑暗的夜里！
我不会忘了那一些笑容的！
我只懂不该把任何人对你的好当作理所当然的！我也曾不是很懂什么是好过吧！当时也唯有我外婆了！
VII
我不懂了
也许我都不懂了
也许做这一切
就都是为了替我外婆挣口气
我懂我做到了！
她没读书不明白事理
也许今世我无法告诉她
这皮孩子最后没负了她
这会是我这一世的懊悔
可我懂局一定
天未负我
我会勇敢地前进的
世界的舞台
最终会记得有过我的
无比的，记住的！
往事，如烟，可曾经我追逐的只是有名，有钱，有漂亮的女朋友
这早已遥远
可还是如此值得回味！
我不害怕了
也许没害怕过
也许至始至终是这一个志
注定了我的这一世吧！
也许祂从未弃过那我
我懂了！
那出世与卑微从未注定过往后之定夺！
是天有否给之志，之勇，之真诚！
没得回头了！这不是我至始，那卑微之刻，至终要的吗？
这世界也真璀璨，真迷人！
VIII
That day, I saw a very beautiful Singaporean girl at a pub with a tall white man
Maybe such was the girl that I once so so much dreamt of, even in those of my deepest dreams !
But I always knew my will will exceed all such infatuations, I knew if I were to succeed there would be numerous such Singaporean girls for me, in the end, I came to knew to cherish all those that were once ever kind to me, that had shown me those kindnesses when the world was against me, looks are not everything I came to realise and believe deeply, because looks without a kind heart but an scheming, opportunist and evil heart, I realised is but very disgusting !
IX
Titled: 黑盔，紫色甲子
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Titled：黑盔
(我从未信过童话故事里所说的王者是出世于所赐的！天、从未放弃过曾也只想看这一片天空，也许就想讨回一些公道的男孩儿！）
像我这样子的小孩
出世不注定有什么王冠戴的啊！
世间只取笑我们这种小孩儿的敢梦过
我敢梦过啊！我当时没管过他们的笑声，我坚决，从未虚伪，从未忘过那些对我笑过的人，真实真实地笑过！
在那沙场上我紧信天以注定的了
戴上那因出世不赐而只能追逐着的黑盔
足以我这辈子的辉煌过了！荣耀也曾那么的不可能啊！
天下人当时能笑我傻，没玩手段，可我要追逐的，他们会知吗？我要永远地被记住了！天没负我，可我也从未负祂，和从未负天下之人的善者！
我要追逐着的荣耀，也许是在那四方式笼子，妈妈回家时就是在恐惧中的起念吧！和那爱打肿脸皮重胖子的小舅去那些高档餐厅和购物中心，我自小就懂他不是得天下之人了，自小的直觉吧！可那些购物中心，那些他和我外婆吵来还是欺骗以后才买得起的高档餐食，和一直只会提认识的丰隆朋友，也许让我这高傲，有胆识和正义之心的男孩儿想要逆出这一切。我清楚了，在沙场上，拳击场上的一切真实的荣耀，才是最干净最值得敬佩的！一个人能出世于卑微，可天还是留下过了他慈悲，祂还是给了我们那无比真实的选择！
当时我懂我能算卑微过，可不能至自已于耻辱之地！
当时，当年，还如此清晰啊！
风能走，可一个人的志，天的恩情，会是永恒的！
不是戴着王冠，就是天赐的王者啊！
为了义，为了从前的那些耻辱，懂不能再退了，而敢死的弟兄们
个个都胜于任何一个王者
他们真啊！
因为这世界买不到的是真诚！
我也真过吧！
X
散的是曾经
曾经也那么美丽啊！
人怎么也会走的
也许我掌握的那一些些时刻吧！
注定会是永恒的！
XI
我在那四房式中的恐惧
世界不必明白
可往后之日
我也大概什么也不怕了
一路来都是讲正义的我
差点被他们至于是我的错
这世界确实一直存在着这种恶人
可天始终是会还我们一个公平的
那翠蓝的天
如此伟大啊！
XII (Titled：王者，也许就是不是出世于这世界所定夺的！)
(像我们这样的孩子，不会辜负天的，因为我们里头，我们的感觉也如此深刻，也许至始至终只想的是，讨回个公道！也许，慢慢的，我们也变了，可我希望的是，我们依然不辜负那些对过我们好的人，因为当初，当刻，那也如此稀少啊！）
好多时候像我们这样的小孩，好多次没自已的选择
我追逐的是，靠着那组屋走廊，的墙，的床，一路来的一种梦
那窗上的铁，就像个压制我的志的笼子吧！
可梦过
梦过，也如此美妙过啊！
我至小，就懂好多事情，是青春时才能得到的
也许是看见我妈妈看着那些洋人打网球吧！
她从未相信过自已的孩子也能成为如此，可我没停过相信自已，我紧信着，多少笑声，多少怀疑自已，我都没停过相信
你懂吗？也许有些善者，会觉得当时我逃学自追逐着天下的觉悟的秘籍，也该是好怕，不会啦，那时候至少不必天天害怕被藤条打了，不必留在一个只会没理智地恨的母亲的阴影中！你懂吗？当时脱离了她，我感到像个终于能飞翔风鹰了！谢谢，善者的关心，可这都已注定好了，我没再真正怕过了！世界，也似乎清楚了！这世界也曾不是我们这样的孩子的舞台！
我跳的也许不是最美的舞，可我的志是这世界不能否认过的！
这世界，多么的违背了我，我懂当时我是为了，汉人的荣耀，的不能再受的耻辱而战的！我从未违背过自已是个汉人，他们笑我竟然在擂台上敢想打赢黑人，他们笑我当时觉得我们华人也能再带领着这世界，不再追逐别人的认可了！可你懂吗？我为而战的不是这世间的虚伪者，不管是汉人或不是，因为我懂我们汉人之中，永远存在着那天塑造的天命者，也许他们拥有这更深刻的感觉，拥有着神圣的直觉，拥有着顶天立地的气势，拥有着一颗讲义气，正义的心，也许就是想像天公讨回个公道吧！那些对我们翻白眼的，只会玩弄当刻的势力的，心胸狭窄的，爱迷于自已爬上去的可笑的游戏里的人就是好人吗？我看过好多人了，我永忘不掉，那些真实善良的！
天也曾不属于我们的
可只有在不正义中，在混乱中
在那些只想讨回一个公道中
我们才会珍惜
才懂
得到它，是如此个光荣的！
那些恶人，心胸狭窄之徒，没任何天意之人
能得一时胜利，能得到一时的取悦
可我们之信天之者永不把一时看在眼里
天是无比的雄厚的，也许之胜也是在祂算盘中
那些有这天意之人，永都不该放弃相信最终天道会胜一切的一切的，也不是完全因为知道天最终不会败的，而也是因为感激天选择的是你，你那些深刻的感觉，的直觉，是祂给的最美的礼物吧！一个对过我们好的人，我们该是永不忘记的！你懂吗？这种人，也曾如此稀少啊！
我现在要讨回个公道
我变得懂得狠了
我变得懂得奸了
可我告诉了自已从不要失去了，当初也许只是为了破出世于这世间的卑微的锁链，的那初心！我当时只想真正看这世界的舞台啊！
最终能舞蹈在它的我
也懂失去了太多自我了！
太多过的致于无可翻身之地了！就因他们妒忌心，因他们心胸狭窄，因他们心很脏！
我懂回不去当初了
可我还是笑当初的傻，的真实！
也许到了最后，我还是能对天说，我真的真的真实过！真的啊！
XIII (Titled：我也曾是那一个想逆这世间的舞台的小男孩儿！)
(当刻，我看见了这世间是属于那些我从未有可能成为的，可我没想要过玩他们的游戏，我要的是最终还能告诉上天我没背叛过他的义字！）
(历史中，我看见了的那些弟兄，他们的英勇，的不玩心机，靠命玩，是最真实的！他们只为了，他们只知道的感觉，的渴望正义，博去了！我还是敢博的，因为我最可恨那些只会利用人之人，朱元璋，白起，曹操，阿公治党的Roland和Johnny大概都致自已死地过吧！也许是因为这世间给了他们想破出它的感觉！可我欣赏这一些人，因为我们不虚伪，不利用人！世间，永远都会再出现这些人，因为大概是上天要再看见我们的火花吧！这世界，能一时成谜与腐败中，可这不会是永恒的！善者之中永远都会再崛起，那些心有如此多感觉，正义如此深刻在他心里的伟者的！世间的璀璨也许不在于那些如此有诱惑感的美女，不是在于有大和限量版的车子，不是在于好大的皇宫，不是在于穿什么正牌的衣着，是在于一颗这世间也取笑过的正义的心吧！那些感觉，和志，还如此地深刻在我心里啊！忘不了的曾经！）
(习近平，你从未是如此真诚的人，你也没有真正有过天意吧！你只是个狗贼！一个自称自已不腐败，可家里都已如此腐败的狗贼！你这种人，除了利用利益，谁会心甘情愿为你而死啊！你已好多次彻底糟蹋了我们汉人的志了！你只会耍自已人，踏着他们感到辉煌！你配称王吗？你真恶心！）
习近平
你们只是会用利益和舌唇
得天下，这却是一时的
对，世上，好少东西有永恒的！
可这些敢为汉人，敢为正义，敢为讨回一个公道，而不稀能得这世间上这一个个可恶的诱惑之人，之顶天立地无可抵赖的，永远都会储存在那些能容下这天下的人的心里，那一天叫着崛起之时，他们会无比英勇，敢死，敢用命告诉弟兄们，他们不是贱踏着弟兄们的命而上那因为他们的王道而如此辉煌的宝座！
我懂亡了就不是你写历史了
可不管胜者是你选的王还是奸诈之人
我们之中都会有着这一些些知道你们不能就这样被遗忘的人
似乎的我能想象他们抱着，写着你们的英勇之刻的记载跑着，跑着！
你懂吗？你们的英勇不能被忘了，不然这世间会变得好阴暗，当世间需要英雄之时，得记得你们，又再地崛起！
浪潮，随风而去，一切能被带走的吗？
可我不会让他们带走你们的！
习近平
你要玩政治，没错，子民有饭吃，吃得饱饱的，我也觉得这不是反你的理由！
是你虚伪，狭小之心，不是真心对待子民的，你心中最重要的不是这天下，你说什么腐败了，对你来说，还是你的那大额头老婆和自以为有多贵重的女儿，你为了你家人肯腐败，你的腐败之活动也大概也是睁一只眼，闭一只眼的，那些被你庇护的贪官害过的子民，不敢吭声，害怕冤着，就为了你的利益，你的狭小的野心，就该如此被你玩吗、我太了解你了，你用了那些对付我的手段不算犯法，不算靠关系吗？这就不腐败了吗？
习近平
你这人很脏，如果你有过以为我最终会和你同流合污，你实在是太看不起我了！我不是你，我对于那些小动作，那些利用关系，利用舌唇玩弄之举，没兴趣！你懂吗？像我这样的男孩儿，也曾不会得到什么荣耀，可我一懂能得到了，就不会放手的！习近平，你不是一个好人！最腐败的，还是你！
你这如此可恨的狗贼！
XIV
我小舅，李家伯这人
就是个恶人
他和他朋友爱踏着比他们惨，好无奈的小女孩儿，被逼迫拍A片以后的恶心的快乐
他们的心永不得到天意，因为他们不是为正义，不是为讨回一道公道，不是为了那无比伟大的天而战的，他们只享受着那些小女孩儿的害怕啊！当时，知道了以后，就懂这人不能继续接近了，有一天要真正地断了！
李家伯能穿着闪亮的名牌货
可我已看清了他
他和他朋友都是好令人呕吐的恶人！
李家伯不会有好结果的！
是看是否是我本人让他知道什么是上天无比伟大的志罢了！
就算他能享受这一世
最终他依然还是逃不过天道的！
他奸吗？好油舌滑嘴噢！可他注定是在天威下会发抖的，因为他从未有胆量，从未有天意，什么软实力，更何况他只有些，也无法冲向一个无比坚定的正义的，天之祂的威会还天下一个公道的！我从未不信过，当时没不信过，更何况不是现在！我紧握了当刻了！
愿天祝我在这一世会胜于这一些些恶人！
你懂吗？我从未失去过，有一些有过的善良，对于这些被糟蹋，侮辱，无奈过的小女孩儿，我深感到对不起，因为天有给过她们一个新世界的机会，可就是被这些为了自已最恶心的享受，利用别人的耻辱来换取快乐的畜牲而一次次地被夺走的，她们不再清纯了，少了那一些真实的笑容了！世间然而也大概告诉她们，她们好脏，她们也不懂什么是爱，没被爱过吧！这世间，每个小女孩儿都值得自已早已被上帝给的尊严的，可家境都不同吧！这些恶人也会利用那些家境复杂的女孩儿！也许，这也是天让即将崛起的英雄看过这世界的经过吧！这一刻刻都坚定了我们的志，我们要拥护着善者，真正无辜的人！不是与这一些卑鄙的恶人，和给他们罩了保护伞的禽兽同流合污！这些小女孩儿的纯真都被岁月好快带走了，仅留的是在镜头面前紧勉强笑的时刻了！也许，她们懂只能硬着头皮，多少耻辱，也就走着世界了，懂的是没资格要求什么显赫了，可你懂吗？我紧信上天给过全部的人，有得选择尊严或耻辱之道路的！
我愿为上帝，为除了这一些恶人，抵挡他们一切切的心机与狡诈！我舍不得这一些，大多该是善者的女孩儿啊！这是伟大的天也感悟我的爱！从不是贪色，不是和他们想享用的爱，因为有好多这一些女孩儿，也对我笑过！世间的人不必清楚，我会为了正义下如何程度的手段，因为我真的肯为了对我笑过而不是翻白眼的人，博出一切的！我要的，至始至终都是永不被忘了！
XV
你有好多把枪噢，习近平
我好怕噢！
哈哈！
来吧！来吧！
你这恶人的枪头只能让我更任性，更倔强，更加能得天之心！
你懂吗？你这种人，历史各个都是，只懂得享用这世间的诱惑，的小小感觉，你从未伟大过，因为你始终狭小！
这世间，当看过了太多假了，也会想要破这一切恶的倔强的！我看你们太假了，我始终存在着正义，我从未违背过天道，就算生命击溃我多少失望，我也没不对它笑过，说着有一天我一定会胜它的！
你懂吗？流浪在那些经典和秘籍之中是我最快乐的时候了
因为那是我当时唯有看到的希望
希望也曾如此渺小啊！
那时，我真实的很！
大概是上帝为了准备我的今天而备的
我不再退缩了，当时就算被他们打药，我的志，还在的，所以天从未负过我！
曙光，在那么多黑暗中，还是人类最盼望的！
因为，我们在光下，才看得见，才真实！也许吧！
世界的一切冲击来吧！
我也曾是一个冒险家！当时不虚伪，现在更加不能了！天也赐与我恩情过啊！我不曾认为我值得过，心中是带着最高的感激，因为我真实，至始至终都会真实的！他们能杀了我，灭了我，可他们灭不掉，像我们一样的男子汉，卑微过，就只想看这一片天，真正地看到！也曾有个炸馒头就开心了，可世界也注定了我们得上它这布置好的舞台了！跳吧！就让我们跳起最高尚，最美妙的舞蹈吧！世界在看了，也许这舞台也开始变了！一个曾只想逆命运的自已，也许注定终于看见了那无比完美高傲的九天了！最终，这都是天已注定好的吗？天也曾善待过我这一个肥仔啊！足以这一辈子的荣耀了！这荣耀我不会忘了，也许就像每一个好过吧！
XVI (Titled：浪潮未灭灯光)
披着披风
面前的风景如此雄伟
大风吹着了
我听见了四海呼喊着一个王者的到临
我看见了那无比高翔的就天，炫耀着了
似乎，天都已注定好了
最终还会是最终的
天的身旁也有如此伟大之地位，一定有的！
也许有了选择
可若逆自我最深刻的“义”字与脏污染在其中了
我真是枉费了也打动过天工！
我的故事看起来是恶魔打造的吗？
我可不是在什么黑暗的洞里的到什么感触的
有好多次是在那些可爱的快餐店写出上帝也给过我的感觉之领悟的
你懂吗？也许吧！我这种男孩儿的志都只为了追逐出众之时刻，也许是害怕黑暗，害怕没人保护地被逼迫到角落，自小的阴影吧！
可那一刻刻也让我看见了人能多恶劣的，当时我没被放过，唯一安慰是我的外婆的存在吧！她爱吃健康的，能就会煮健康的给我吃，我都狼吞虎咽地吃下去了，因为那好多次是下午，我刚从学校回来在学校没有钱吃东西，偷偷去她家吃！人心能多狭小，变态的，我早都知了！
从我小舅和大舅那儿，我看见了人能是多么能为在外头的朋友而挤干处处尽量省吃俭用的外婆，她不是什么太太，有时经过金店，也笑着看过了，好久一次才终于在大巴窑的一间组屋楼下的店才买了一个首饰吧！你懂吗？我外婆一路来都走得不容易，我也曾为了保护她，为了为她争一口气肯拼出一切，那些恶人却要改编我的志，他们以为他们有着王命，可天命，正义和宁死也不屈与耻辱，各个都胜于他们！我的傲气，也许也许也不是完全于出世于这世间所赐给我的，也许我在新加坡从我妈妈那也能算是有历史之家族，可一个觉悟的人，不是追逐那一些不是实在实力的篇写的，也许都不算一点光荣也不是吧！曹操，的干爷爷是个好靠近皇帝之人，可还是太监。毛泽东，的爸爸是个富裕的农民，可还是个农民了。我家卖咖喱饭，有名了，赚了一些钱，可还是是卖咖喱的！也许我们除了写诗之外，还有好多相同之处，也许是天早也注定好的了！我们也许想做的就是破从前的卑微的耻辱，就想看看天空！可我在擂台上的倔强不是我的家族悠久的生意的影响吗？也许也是为了一点我的太公的小小成就吧！可大多数是为了为外婆争口气，为了为从前的汉人烈人而动华人不能再倒了，为了自已紧信我的倔强也会为我讨回个公道的，你懂吗？世间当时多黑暗，可我没想过要退缩，因为我从未真正有过底，来退缩啊！我也宁可不出卖自已地苟且偷生！死吗？死就死啊！也许我也有点想要像项羽！你懂吗？他们能准备好十面埋伏致于我，可也曾没得退缩的我，懂此刻更不能退缩了，我会杀到最后一个人头，也许该像项羽一样，把别人无法夺走我的命的最后留给在那人海中，我看见的唯一的一个善者之眼吧！
我们也算善者过吧！也许是这世间的逼迫，让别人误会了我们已失去了这一丝丝善良！还在，多少还在！
我们的志从未被灭过，不管浪潮多凶猛，多狠心，我们是抱着上帝的梦的人的，灯光不能灭！
不管来途多迷茫，我也不会放弃过，上帝给的梦的！当这世间，笑我们自大时，我懂我能说，我好多好多次没为了诱惑放弃了上帝的笑容，因为它我才知是最好最完美的！这世间多美多火辣的女人，多少金银珠宝钱财，多少权力，都是假的，祂才是最真实的，我最黑暗的时候，祂也没放弃过我这一个只想梦的男孩儿！
最后，我才明白世界当时的容不下我
是磨练我的志的曾经
因为上帝，不是要我得一时的荣耀，是要永恒地被谨记住了！
愿，我的背影能在历史中是如此洒脱的！
像我们这样的男孩儿，要记住的是，当初也该是最漂亮的了！已好遥远了！
XVII
也许有好多感觉吧！
都塑造了我
让我走向这世界的舞台！
璀璨啊！确实璀璨过啊！
也许一直像破从前的命运的我
最终也感动了天公
而注定的是最后，最后的故事会是美丽的！
紧信着天，击来的拳头，视线成了多模糊，都倔强着
也许就只是想讨回个公道吧！
世间也曾那么的否认我这傻男孩儿
可最终，上天还是没辜负了那我啊！
我们这些男孩儿都追逐的都是一样一场梦
梦多香
也不能枉费有过“义”字
不能忘了它
世界也那么的黑暗过啊！
XVIII (Titled: A curry rice boy who dared thought of bringing home a doctor wife !)
Maybe during those years
Having a doctor wife was one of my dreams
Those years but long gone, away they went !
But I always do have a soft spot for female unmarried doctors
Maybe it’s their mostly kindness, of their abilities
I laugh at those years now, that I was wearing loosely fitted (to save money) brand-less clothings, what audacity to then had thought of having a doctor wife !
But I was always audacious, even the sands of time can’t bring away of such, I am certain ! Maybe I was always certain, maybe it was all part of God’s means !
Maybe one day I will have a doctor wife
But maybe that day will never come
At that Raffles clinic, I couldn’t forget that soft kind eyes !
Maybe without me will be all for the better !
Maybe we will never meet ever again, but goodbyes are the prettiest when they are the last ! So goodbye my dear, byes with all my heart !
XIX
Will itself can be at those points of clashes and also in those moments before those clashes
Before those bedazzling stage lights, before those crowds that were either with or against you, but you knew you were already trained instinctively to perform, to go against the current and to go all in, knowing a defeat or to be unable to withstand even the heaviest or heaviest blows to be too humiliating, maybe believing the Heavens meant for you to battle with its will ! Before those dazzling light you have to train with your will. I trained then for the ability to inflict devastating powers and to withstand heaviest of blows, I never cared of of my looks, or how people viewed me, because I understood one thing, when you have achieved glory, fame, power and money, the world views you differently in a positive way. Maybe, it’s that charisma from the social capital that you have gained, or that final powerful card that you now have in your deck. But, maybe all along I had only wanted greatness, never did I care for the validation of lay men of boxing. Maybe only those true-hearted and kind lay men.
I read online on my used iPhone 3 passed to me from my older uncle, during my secondary school years, that push-ups and not gym muscles were essential in creating true power and withstanding pure forces so I did as much as I could of them during those times. In school, those times, that I could have squeezed in and tricked my way out of those assemblies and classes, in those toilets, those recesses’ fields and back home in my room and home toilet before showering. Once when I kept asking for the toilet during my classes which I found to be unfulfilling of my ambitions, I went to one of the same boys’ toilet, at the end cubicle, a squat toilet, I was doing push ups, a classmate eventually saw and said I was fucking, masturbating myself with the toilet bowl, I didn’t care much of those words, they laughed, tried bullying me, but can they bully me, I been through worst before, what would these dogs have known, they only knew to lust over those Saint Andrew’s Junior College girls, just because they were in short skirts, did they know the grandiosities of this world, I laugh. I was already tough from those beatings from my mother, I never feared anything after those years with her anymore, I wanted the stages, I knew then, I didn’t want to just be an ordinary man among the crowds, some are happy with so, but I knew I had that will in me, I wanted exceptionality, I wanted the skies, maybe I had known then already all known already, that I had the will for but for the highest of the heavens !
My legs were from running the trials of the MacRitchie Reservoir and among the once straight roads between Marymount, Ang Mo Kio, Yio Chu Kang and Khatib. Maybe winning a 5km or 10km in the world stage were among my once grandiose dreams. I did qualify for a place in old MacRitchie Reservoir Runners club, running below 25 minutes for a 5km at like 13 or 14 years old, but I had forgotten why I didn’t joined and participated in it at the very end. I never knew to rest and recover then, I was too fearful of my aggression and fearful that any laziness will take over me, I might had some mild schizophrenia then already, but my will never did waver irregardless of any waves that were roaring against me. I was wilful ! Always was !
Maybe an adventurer, I always was, I did take many risks during those years, but I did my calculations too, I knew to understand strategies, to take note of the refinement, adapting of and creativeness in them in those early years already. I trusted the Heavens with not even the slightest pinch of betrayal as well, during those, funny years as well. Then, I didn’t betray his will for glory and for righteousness, not now, never now !
I don’t really like mentioning those years, they were extremely wilful, I never did allow myself to recover then as I didn’t know about it and I also didn’t have enough pocket money as for psychological warfare to reward myself with some sporty healthy snacks – they were all from Western countries then, too expensive for me. But I never did forget those wilful years ! Those years will always exist among stubborn and dare to dream of the world men like us ! I did dream during those years when I was still among the crowds, but a silly face among the crowds, but with already that unconquerable eyes, I still do remember.
XX
I never did truly fear of how the world would look at me
Because when you were in that cage, when you were in fear of the next carnage, it seems all you had wanted to do was to break-free, maybe happiness with nice food would had sufficed, but it seems the world had always gave me this ego, it kept pushing me on, when you are faced with nothing to lose, you fear only of not striving, because that’s your last chance, and during those days apart from my grandmother no one truly gave me chances !
The world may write of me of a devil ! I know I was not ! I know. But maybe, maybe, all that I had wanted was for other great men to remember me, to hold me in high-esteem, I was that pathetic once, wearing those loosely fitted clothings, thinking of the residue bubble tea taste and texture, that I had bought with at times money that my grandma would have slipped to me secretly. If a devil was once but a boy who had just wanted more cups of bubble tea, when the world was but a deception to him, then this world is but atrocious !
You know, never had I forsaken God, from those deep meditations before my exams when I was seven to twelve years old, to those years all a rugged me had wanted to be someone like that of Roger Federer or Mike Tyson or Kenenisa Bekele, all I whispered was that I trust in God, when I was inflicted with those many disappointments, I never ceased in stopping to trust, only the Heavens will truly know, to those years on those boxing stages, I trusted but the Heavens. Now, with those cunning bastards attempting to banish me to a death ground still, my faith, my will, will not see me whimper or cry for mercy when faced with such, I will fight to my death if the world once again denies me, but I know, I know, the Heavens never did deny me ! The world and all its bedazzlement might had never been meant for a man like me, maybe all I was but to show Heaven’s will ! The world always needed heroes, especially when it’s becoming dark, darker it becomes, it has always been those righteous ones that are so wanted of, if the righteous don’t implement their will, the world might darken, till it’s really dark, and we can never find the lights again ! And hope becomes but laughable, impossible !
The world might had not been meant for a man like, a boy then, but I was relentless once, I was kind once, I was indomitable once and the world and all its bedazzlement has truly witnessed it ! I will leave this stage only when the Heavens ask of me, I shan’t betray the Heavens, it was but kind to me !
Everlasting were those years, I will never forget those years but where I was just striving, striving for something that was not given to me when I entered this world !
XXI (Titled: 已一抵十，的鉅鹿之战 – 这世界你懂吗？也如此真实过！)
(项羽，永不会被忘了！当刻，他也视死如乡啊！当你懂耻辱比死还可怕，这世间也有何之惧了？当你不为了那一些诱惑，不为了人世间的肮脏的欲望而战，而是为了讨回一句公道，一旨天命，和永不灭的荣耀，那才是永恒！有几人能真正得到如此荣耀如此辉煌过啊？我往向了天哀叹了！这世间最后会对不起每一个像项羽之勇者吗？我又往向了天，突然之间懂了，像我们这样的人永都会再出现，再崛起的，也会变通吧！这世间一直都会再进入黑暗中的，只懂，灯光不能完全灭了啊！人不能没有希望了，这世界会如此的暗的啊！我们都存在过这世界，不能，不能被忘了！那一一时刻的英勇都是不真正败过的傲气，的曾经！永被记住了，永被咏志之天之灭之刻！可天，永不会灭的！）
项羽也曾是这世界的璀璨的霸王
时间的过去，胜者的一一诋毁，却是带不走人们心中的野心，也许想要的是在瞩目这如此英勇的英雄的再次到来！
时间还是带不走人们心中最深的渴望，的真实，的希望，项羽可是能已一抵十的啊！鉅鹿之战他带着天意，带着不败之傲，带着无可后退之勇，已二十万大军，打败了四十万大的秦军啊！谁能说此时此刻，天不在项羽这一边啊？那些军卒大概也信了项羽之天命，当时能说之疯狂吗？项羽也释放出了世界所谓见过的荣耀吧！他的永被记谨记的摧毁了秦军的那一刻，也让那些虚伪，只会投机的叛军领袖归降他时，抬头也不敢往他啊！他是如此雄伟的啊！历史会记住项羽的！人心的渴望着英雄，的渴望着黎明的最后来临，的渴望着族人的辉煌，之永也不会灭的！
也许那些汉人傻小子或被敬重的汉人老子是冒着生命危险，抱着那些篇写华夏民族的英勇过的一一片刻，唯独希望，若坠落了，我们还会记起，我们也有过天意！坠落时是如此黑暗的啊！它的剩余的痕迹，抹擦过我，我忘不了那一些耻辱，那一些卑微，紧信的是，汉人会再崛起，当时也没给过我们之有志者任何其他选择了，只能，只能崛起！
也许，他们能说历史是胜者之写的，可胜者多次是已渺小的奸诈，的心机，得于胜利的，韩信，项羽，都死于那些不能真正地容下这世界中的心胸中，可最优美的是我们汉人不笨，懂的识别永恒，也存在着那些抱着书册跑着，躲着的傻小子，就为了记住那一些伟大，真实过！历史的一刻能记载，诋毁，可我们汉人会再记起那些璀璨过的！人的最深渴望也许，也许就是最后不虚伪，最后真实过，最后懂至少也什么是梦过！这世界也许是一场梦，可人的善良和真诚过，一一还是会给我们感动的！项羽，韩信也许都没真正忘了那些对他们笑过的善者。当时也如此迷茫啊！这也许就是崛起的美妙过了！
XXII
也许在华夏民族人的历史中
最辉煌过的不是兵器，科技的优越性
而是那些带着天也如此稀少赐的天命之人
带着的兵人，那些敢死队！
从朱元璋打败陈友谅，从项羽已两万大军打败二十万秦军，叛军的领袖看也不敢看项羽，从被胯下之辱的韩信，之井陉一战，已三万大军，背着那懂再也回不头之勇水，打败了二十万之大赵军！也许他们从也没质问天也给过的卑微，仅靠着了勇猛，和紧信着天也会被感动的，那紧信着天意也属于那些卑微过的有志者也许永不会变的！
敢为义死之人，永会是如此璀璨的，胜过王者
因为好多的他们，不是为了最后得到好多美女，能享受好的她们的阴道，不是为了能踏在兄弟的身上而爬上去，不是为了家里人能得到利益违，不是为了狭小的自已而是为了讨回一个公道！也许当时他们也紧信过这朱元璋，这项羽和这韩信的天命吧！这些年也许是最璀璨的，美好的，因为只有那无比永恒的天才能真正赐予真实，赐予那’义‘字！
我也从未怕过，从那擂台上的陷阱，那些想要我恐惧的警车，到现在的埋伏，我从未害怕过，世间也许已注定了，我最害怕的时候是当我是那一个天真，只想吃一盘便宜好吃的叉烧饭的小子！世间也许都已注定好了一切了！可从不虚伪的我，也紧信着，当年的那无可否认的志，的那卑微和那无可被占有的眼神也感动了上天！那些年，也许会是我最为傲的，因为我忘不了那些在人潮中地想要看到闪亮吧！这世间，我早已知道是不公平的了，可我永不被它征服，也许像我们这样的孩子要的至始至终只是一个对我们公平的世界吧！真璀璨的世界！忘不了那一些昨天也是啊！
因为曾也没有什么，因为心中燃烧的志，因为想要为自已的名族，自已讨回个公道，因为懂不能再耻辱了，因为为了报答那些对我们善良过的善者，这世间也似乎没什么可怕的了，我们真的敢死，这世间也许最可怕的不是死，而是虚伪，只会躲在一旁利用别人的命！我从未虚伪，从未过！你懂虚伪，有多可怕吗、也许忘不掉的是，那些对我笑过的善者，忘不掉的是那些被关在笼子里无奈的时刻，我也懂过，在我出世的当刻，世间也不注定好了我会站在它的舞台，我从未把倔强拿出来吧，从未停过紧信上天吧，我从未让自已虚伪，从未背叛对我之真正之善者！这世界能逆我们，当时当刻，能是有多无奈多卑微的，可我们紧捉住的是我们紧信的天意，的天也会被我们感动的，的有一天！我们也曾什么都不是吧！可笑的我们，也走向了世界最闪耀的舞台了！可不会虚伪的！这世界，也真特别啊！
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这世界也存在过我们的勇猛
因为懂不能再倒退了，也许都没有过倒退过的机会因为，卑微过吧！卑微过啊！可世间也许还是没放弃过我们，我们有着从被销毁的志，当这世界如此的迷茫，当它怀疑过我们的伟大，我们还是倔强着，倔强的很呢！
我也看见过了世界的虚伪过了！可你懂吗？我从未虚伪，因为这种人是没有原则的，当时就是被这种人欺压玩弄的，这世间也当时没给过我任何能真正玩弄它的机会，我当时懂也许退了只有仅有的耻辱，懂不能再退了！
有些人有着一万支枪指着他们，他们就害怕了，可我紧只，害怕的当刻，已早过去了，是当我饿着肚子，当我只想买Scholastic Pamphlet上面的书本，当我被鞭打虐待得好惨，也许世间早已注定好这一切了！我只能勇往之前，可也许懂是因为没有过其他选择，除了我的外婆，当时也不懂温暖过，不懂不天天心惊胆跳，是什么感觉的了！我只能勇往之前，我也就敢追逐那些最远方的星星了！我没有真正地有过什么害怕失去的，也过吧！我的外婆，有一天在那些骗局的迷雾消失以后中，一定会为我而感到骄傲过的！时间也带走了好多，可没带走过，当初当时心中给我感到最有底气的倔强，的真诚！
世界，也就是曾如此的否认过我们啊！都是当初了，可就是忘不了！也许当时，没被看好的我们，有的是天也会被动的倔强，的傻吧！
我现在，笑了，可当初，当我外婆给了我好多零用钱，比别人还多，从未有过零用钱，从未自已买过东西的我，在当时也终于笑了，不是现在得到世界的一切荣耀的笑，可就是终于有人爱我的了的笑，她也曾给了我希望，所以我也懂，我变得多狠，她然而多对不起我，枪头，狠心，也不会对着她的！我也会懂自保的，可我就是忘不记她当时对过我的好，我当时不是什么名人，什么都不是啊！可她还是相信了我。也许，这世间最美丽的是当你什么都不是时，被信任，爱护了！我永远也不忘了，每一位，信任过我，爱护过我的人，在我心底，我抱着的是对他们的无可代替的感恩！
好迟才懂得笑，才真正有过快乐的我，懂的是，做人不能虚伪，懂，每一份好，不是理所当然的，也是这么珍贵的，懂，我不能背叛对过我好的人！
就算结局会是悲惨的，可我紧信我依然得真诚，对善者真诚，因为我紧信上天为我也而感动过，也是我的真诚过吧！不管结局是喜是悲，我也不违背当初，世界不必懂当时出世而有过的黑暗的！我笑！因为现在我依然没虚伪过啊！
世界也真璀璨！
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风景也好美丽过啊！
忘不住当初的雄伟，的一意孤行
从前也如此遥远了
可我紧捉住过它了
当年也什么都不是的我
最后，最终还是看见了这一片天下！
也许都是注定好的！
过去依然闪烁！
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他们说我错了
那也好吧！
若紧相信着天意，紧相信着自已的志是错了
那么我无可否认地错了
可从未后悔过，因为天也让我看见了祂的感动了！
从也没有什么的我们
紧握着无比遥远了的曾经
紧知，不能，绝不能虚伪！
这片天下，也不必知道我要的是什么了！
当时也许要的只是一个正义，也走了好远了啊！
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末忘了初衷
因为会忘了自已的
自已当时也是一个卑微的小男孩儿
只是至始至终都存在着那一种志，一种倔强吧！
这世界的嘲笑声退了
可当初，我没忘记过！也许我也只是多一个想征服着世界的男子，最后我懂了，我的不虚伪，的真实让最后的那我，真正的看见了这世界了！不忘当初啊！我也懂了！
这世界也曾如此陌生啊！它能虚伪，可我不能，就算这世界完全变暗了，我还是会紧握着在我手中的这灯光的！世界不是在黑暗中可怕，是在黑暗中，没人敢站出来而可怕！我不要这世界没了一丝灯光了，因为那一刻是绝望的了！
