I never did truly fear of how the world would look at me
Because when you were in that cage, when you were in fear of the next carnage, it seems all you had wanted to do was to break-free, maybe happiness with nice food would had sufficed, but it seems the world had always gave me this ego, it kept pushing me on, when you are faced with nothing to lose, you fear only of not striving, because that’s your last chance, and during those days apart from my grandmother no one truly gave me chances !
The world may write of me of a devil ! I know I was not ! I know. But maybe, maybe, all that I had wanted was for other great men to remember me, to hold me in high-esteem, I was that pathetic once, wearing those loosely fitted clothings, thinking of the residue bubble tea taste and texture, that I had bought with at times money that my grandma would have slipped to me secretly. If a devil was once but a boy who had just wanted more cups of bubble tea, when the world was but a deception to him, then this world is but atrocious !
You know, never had I forsaken God, from those deep meditations before my exams when I was seven to twelve years old, to those years all a rugged me had wanted to be someone like that of Roger Federer or Mike Tyson or Kenenisa Bekele, all I whispered was that I trust in God, when I was inflicted with those many disappointments, I never ceased in stopping to trust, only the Heavens will truly know, to those years on those boxing stages, I trusted but the Heavens. Now, with those cunning bastards attempting to banish me to a death ground still, my faith, my will, will not see me whimper or cry for mercy when faced with such, I will fight to my death if the world once again denies me, but I know, I know, the Heavens never did deny me ! The world and all its bedazzlement might had never been meant for a man like me, maybe all I was but to show Heaven’s will ! The world always needed heroes, especially when it’s becoming dark, darker it becomes, it has always been those righteous ones that are so wanted of, if the righteous don’t implement their will, the world might darken, till it’s really dark, and we can never find the lights again ! And hope becomes but laughable, impossible !
The world might had not been meant for a man like, a boy then, but I was relentless once, I was kind once, I was indomitable once and the world and all its bedazzlement has truly witnessed it ! I will leave this stage only when the Heavens ask of me, I shan’t betray the Heavens, it was but kind to me !
Everlasting were those years, I will never forget those years but where I was just striving, striving for something that was not given to me when I entered this world !