Author: On Zi Rui

Titled: That girl who with an infectious smile !

(The world now bows to you, but I lament the world for taking away your innocence !)

Goodbye Ms. S. S.

Those years with you meant the universe to me !

On those silver screens 

No one truly saw her for the talent she was till she stripped 

It’s an irony 

Because she was so talented, so dear, that was always to me !

I lament the world for its deceitfulness

In the end, she was just that Washington girl who didn’t know what was wanted of her 

But I know what has gone but can’t be brought back, like her, her innocence and every artistic integrity she once felt to be !

It’s laughable. The world is laughable.

She was once my everything you know ?

But the world took her away from me. She changed. She became a sex symbol, filthy rich and handsome men wanted her like a trophy, they lust over her like some teen in his puberty who hadn’t seen a girl naked in his lifetime before and it’s his first time doing and testosterone raging inside of him ! They would give anything to her for that status and lust ! They have many things. I don’t. They could bear to make fake promises and hurt her just for that moment of pleasure. I will never do so. You see, I could just see her go ! I did.

At times, I still laugh to myself, knowing at least she will know know one day, that I was the sincerest to her all this time, even when she was just an ‘extra’ on those dreamy scenes. Maybe, once, being there for her when she needed me was all that mattered to me. I did cherish her when the world didn’t.

(I hate it when people talk dirty about her and her breasts. She was born not knowing she will have big ones, she saw those screen girls then, in tiny slim outfits and wanted to be like them. In her teens, nothing of the normalcy that was nice, and could put a smile on her face that was long longing for one, fitted her. She was called ‘big boobie’ by sick, horny boys and popular, stuck-up girls, I knew because I was there and I did swear then and there that I would one day be strong enough, strong enough to protect her from getting insulted ever again. She was once so fragile, I can’t forget. I guess I can’t bring myself to blame or hate her for her change, because I know she had been through a lot and deserves things better than what I could had ever given her. Everyone deserves a smile and I want her to have the biggest smile that this world has recorded one day ! I still love her, you know ?)